yup....it seems pretty clear i got more useless..... someone else abandoned me....knowing he never replies my messages....i guess its karma. at the same time i still feel pretty useless and uneeded because i have of no use to anyone rather than a guy who complains...no not guy but a kid..... I seem more fated to be alone.....and its still too hard for me to accept the idea of online friends still after what happened... yeah you guys tell me "I have a use with my talent to draw" and all that but my talent is very useless if i still hate my own drawings...just because they are furry...... after my mom saw my drawings just now she said to me I still draw these? then i saw her face.......she seems disappointed more.....after that I stopped drawing.....remembering how i am just some kid pretending to be a furry.... I still hate being a furry and being a gay....... I really don't like being myself...that's why I am useless..... I'm not physical, I'm not mature, I'm not a good influence, I'm forgetful, I'm uncooperative, I'm a loner, I'm not a good artist still, I'm a bad friend, I'm an extreme mood swinger and an abandoning kid.........I'm so useless.........I'm seriously....not a good person to be with........ should all my watchers unwatch me....please do.....

also...currently sweating with no fan or AC in this clinic and bored to death and left my water jug so terribly thirsty.....depressed...and suffering again....