Well, I disappeared for awhile.

And looking at my 6381S and 240J I will have a lot to go threw for the next month or so.
I took a break from FA just due to some mental problems mostly steaming from how I feel about life. A little over year ago there was a major family emergency that had me drop a lot of my life VERY suddenly. And even when I was able to get some sense of normalcy back it turned out to be temporary. Imagine being on the ocean and maybe the boat is steady for a day or two and then all of a sudden a storm. At some points even when things were stable I still felt like things were grossly wrong.
This all lead to a number of health problems and that was the year I had to go to the hospital the most ever in my life. It just took such a mental toll that it effected my physical health. It was easily the worst year of my life with out question.
But now it really does and trust me I been patient, feel normal now or close it. Life is picking up again. I'm starting to enjoy my hobbies again and soon even heading back to college after having to drop out. And trust me I need that in my life to have something to reach for.

I just want to say to anyone I commissioned here then went dead silent. I'm sorry. It's nothing you did, I just couldn't keep up. Not with this rocking feeling in my gut.

To my good friends who I also went silent on. I'm sorry. You are all wonderful people and deserve much more stable people than my ass. But thank you for being there, even if it was just checking in without me responding.

But all that aside I'm glad to be back.