TL:DR
I talk about major trips, personal changes and personal art prospects while keeping the social aspect on the corner of my eye. I have become a more mature person with still huge flaws I gotta work on, specially related to work: I will fully dedicate myself to become a disciplined individual that keeps on doing cool art projects (animatics, journal game reviews and huge illustrations). I appreciate all the people that I have meet and I will continue to meet.

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Hiiii! I don't talk lots in journals but, why not give it a try this time eh? I usually do some writing for myself and I wanna get into the habit of doing some personal introspection for each year. Today starts the compromise ~

Woah. 2025 has been a hike of plateaus, danger and some nasty beautiful views; I say this as an spectator and the general vibe that I get from the people I hang out with. Multiple people had it rough and multiple-less had it great. It feels too me like a mixed bag with a taint of dark. I think we all can say a lot of this comes from politics and economics. I will dug more into each section below but yeah, what a year hahaha

In my personal life, it was a huge shift from the frozen 2024. Let's see...

Homecoming

This year I came back home. I was doing my studies in another city and I finally finished my career! (Yay!). Although, I have yet not graduated; there are lots of annoying paperwork that I gotta do and probably gotta do some social service (again), so hopefully that comes through in 2026. But that doesn't matter okay, what matters to me is the homecoming. I finally came back to my family and my homecity. It feels nice. Is quiet, is calmer, is way less noisy and a better environment to develop as an artist. I don't think GDL was for me; I made some cool friends and connections, the university was actually not bad and I have good memories of what I did there... but I hate big cities. I'm a person that likes to stay at home, I don't do much shopping, I find entertainment in mundane things so, do I have a place in a big city? I don't felt like I do. I love my small city and I wanna stay here at least for the next 5 years. So I made myself a promise: Let's get some discipline doing and function as an adult.

I became an adult!

Pfft I mean, I have been an adult for 9 years but, there's always this feeling of not feeling like an adult. Like your mental development or what you like or how you think still makes you feel like a teenager faking being an adult. Lots of people feel trapped in this feeling even in their late years. I do agree with that, we all still have our "inner child" talking and there's lots of things that scare the shit out of us.

But this year I felt I have overcome some of those bigger fears. I feel like I can do things on my own, I feel like I can take responsibility for them, I feel I can take my own decisions and care about my own views dismissing what I deem as inconsequential. I pick my fights. I am an observer, I create my own conclusions and in the end, I am more me. I feel I'm more me. That to me feels like I have reached adulthood. What still scares me on this process is that I have become also more uncaring. There's issues I gotta solve, hopefully I do slowly. But yeah, it feels nice to be an adult ~

Trip to Chile

Oh hey, one of those decisions was going for a trip to a whooooole new place and country, my first time leaving México straight to Chile!
(My first time in a plane too!).

Chile is a wonderful place, the way I like to describe it is as Latinamerican Japan. This is not about the people, but more about the infrastructure; they have some many similarities that I found interesting from how the streets are constituted to the way the houses are planned of. I visited Santiago for 15 days, going around the city, eating new food, hearing the accent, discovering new customs. That said, I did came at a bad time 'cuz if you know me you know I CAN'T stand cold. The regular weather during my stay was singular digits of Celsius so I was suffering from start to finish bbbrrr. But I had a warmth heart that made me stand it

To Padz: You are a wonderful friend and host. I think one of the reasons why I liked my trip so much was because of you and your attention to everything made me feel welcomed. Thank you lots dude, I love ya <3

Why Chile? Going to PAWSTRAL and friends over there I wanted to visit. Plain and simple. Will I go to another country this year? If the money says yes, yeah! I have my eyes on Colombia, for the same reason of visiting a friend ~

Convention selling

I have been selling at conventions, specifically Confuror and Furcan here in México. I attended Confuror 2024 & 2025 at the Dealers Den along with BlackyPNG, 2025's Night Market with PUNKsTERNE and Furcan 2025 again with BlackyPNG. While I didn't sell in PAWSTRAL, I did help Padzyan with his stuff. Overall, very good experiences! (except Furcan pfft), you get to meet people that like your work, see their reactions and hang out with a lot of artists and furries that you have meet over the years online but now seeing their faces. (I do remember a particular comment for a guy that saw and liked my animatic and that made my whole weekend in 2024 asjkhsadkfg). I have made multiple merch that I haven't uploaded yet, but I'm glad people liked what I did for them ~ tho...

I gotta say, the money that I spent doing merch and selling is around the same money as do doing commission work. So after 2 years of selling, this phase is done. I kind of didn't like to "create popular things" that would sell. I wanna hone my art skills more and I think working with a lot of y'all on new things will do! Which I have been doing

1 Year Into Freelance

It has been 1 year since I started doing commission work (for real). Is been nice! But there's this little something that that has set me back and I need to solve asap: Discipline
I have never been disciplined into working, I don't have the tolerance of working on the same thing for multiple hours, but at the same time, I can game for multiple hours without being tired, so what gives? It IS possible to spend that time working instead! Just a week ago I decided to uninstall my Steam library from my PC and just leave it on my laptop. To set up a laptop I have to move a lot of shit around in my desk and is a hassle. So I don't bother and I draw instead! Hahaha, is a cheap tactic, but it has been working so far

Anyway, I wanna become better at dealing with tolerance and communicating with clients. This next year hopefully I find a good thing going about that! Thanks to everyone that I have been working with and has had gave me the patience, I truly appreciate that deeply <3

AI and what does it mean to me (and everyone)

Is a poisoned river. But also, I think if we reject and don't want for the river to go on its course, we need to reject with knowledge. You as an artist and as a audience have the duty to know what it can and can't do. What damage it does and does not. For starters, I think this one you gotta keep in mind: Always make sure to differentiate between AI and GenAI when you talk about it, always.

There's so many things we have lose in the surge of GenAI; the most important one to me is discovery and wonder. But also we have some things to gain, like brand new appreciation for effort and clearness of stagnation.

I have to come clean here, I have been (I am?) a consumer of GenAI images and I full well know it; but I have never generated images and I try not to share them with people I know, cuz I don't think it deserves to get recognition, I keep it to myself. I have never used GenAI on any of my art process and it will continue to stay like that. Cuz' doing the art is cool and I would feel bad cheating my hands, my brain and all my artists peers on their stolen work.

So, yeah, GenAI bad. It will continue to evolve, but is an autodestructive machine that will probably explode (hopefully soon enough!). It doesn't scare me cuz I fully believe in the human capacity of bullshit-detection and emotion-crave, but if I can contribute to it's rightful meticulous down fall, I will.

I Crave Recognition

Talking about emotion-craving, yeeeeaah I recently has been feeling like that with my personal projects and art hahaha. I don't desire fame and I don't desire numbers, I think it has been couple of years since I stopped to care about numbers altogether, but I do crave appreciation and expectations.

Is a weird feeling because I know you guys do care, but to which extend? There are projects of mine like Bowser Day, Bey's Hotdogs Adventures (Dec 28th) and my TTRPG Campaigns that I wish had more expectations for those to participate, to feel they are worth doing. Naturally, none of these are well known other than Bowser Day, and the TTRPGs are only for my players, so is silly to expect expectations. But I wish do have what others have...

Recently, Nekeith finished his long-running comic of 5 years. From day one I have been there and it is super cool that multiple people were eager to check on his pages each new week, to make theories and sometimes fanart. I wish to have something like that in the future!

Perhaps I'm just not a good enough storyteller yet? Perhaps I just need to give them more time? Who knows; I try to give my all to these and I know it takes time for people to care about new things. So only time will tell. I love all of you that deeply care about the things I do, truly. You all make me continue on with these <3

Hey, and perhaps I might surprise y'all with some new things I have planned to try!

Resolutions / Art Projects

I don't have many resolutions BUT I do have a couple of things that I wanna do with my art next year!

Animatics: That compliment at Confuror has been making rounds in my mind since then, and I wanna give it a try to make more animatics, for real this time! I have lots of stories with my characters that I want to tell and it seems like a perfect opportunity to do so. So you all will see more of that and hopefully is good ~

Audience YCH: So, y'all see this illustration, right? https://www.furaffinity.net/view/63270869/
I'm gonna make WAY more like these, but also, I think that's a perfect opportunity to feature a lot of you in there, to make the art more interesting, lively AND also keep me afloat with some moneys! I will be offering to draw your OC/'sona as an audience person for a small amount of let's say 10-20$ USD depending on complexity. I do wanna make more wrestling and I love drawing complex backgrounds; let's combine those two and see what cool art comes from it ~

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And I think that's all! Thanks for reading guys, and hopefully y'all have a wonderful/nice/calm end of the year and start of the new!
I'll buy y'all commenters a bucket of chicken wings, promise ;P