I want to see what it would take to put myself in a comma/die. I can't cut, first I don't think I can go deep enough to actually hurt myself that bad. And two, I would get in trouble with my boyfriend and have everything taken off me again.

So I have decided to do a pill cocktail list to see which is the most interesting/effective. Please give me advice on what pills may help me to my comma state.

I don't actually expect any replies on this as frankly, 2 people know who this account actually is, and I'm fairly sure they ignore anything posted here. But, if there is a random to find this page, please comment. I would love any contact right now. :3