Since last September (towards the middle of it) of last year, my (now) ex husband and i have been homeless. We where very wrongfully evicted from where we where living. Mine more bullshit then his as to the reason why we where evicted. i became pregnant with my ex husbands daughter. and him.... well it doesnt matter anymore....

im still pregnant with his kid. its been rough, very rough... For the past 6 months, ive been in philly where a really nice gentle man who let me and my ex stay with him during the winter. im now back at my moms house down in horsham. but now that im separated from my ex, im signing my rights as a mother over to the father. and its killing me inside because i wanted nothing more then to be a mother since the death of my grandpa when i was 4 yrs old. but shit happens.... i guess....

it seems i can never catch a break in life. *sighs* i think that i finally catch a break in life, aaannnnnddddd then this happens.... not only does the one person that i thought would never do what he did does it not once but twice. once with another woman and once with a guy i thought i could call a friend. (and its not the really nice gentle man that let me stay with him until my mother let me come back for the remainder of my pregnancy) but it always seems i have the worst luck in life....

Once my exs daughter is born, and i fully recover from birth. im going to be hitting the road and drifting from state to state. i have a bike that i can use to get around on. i just need to get a camping backpack sleeping bag that can go down to extreme cold and boots. maybe stock up on some can foods so when i hit the road ill have something to eat if i dont hit a town by nightfall. also camping gear that will help me get by if i dont make another town or state by nightfall.

i will try to keep you guys in the loop as im doing this. all i can say is keep me in your prayers and maybe we can meet if i make it to your state and township or borough. its going to be fun. getting to see the country again. see hiw much its changed since ive retired from horseback riding. but anywho, im going to sign off for now... i will post another journal the day i leave for my long assed road trip across the country. maybve i can finally meet my sister-in-law from my marriage of . and her wife. thatd be cool.

anywho this is swarm87, signing off for now...