Good day my fur friends. Long time no see. So much has changed since last I was here. I am no longer married due to mental and emotional abuse. A lot of gaslighting. 😞 Just a laundry list of problems that didn’t come to light till after I left Texas.
But alas, here I am.
Then my mom passed away this year in May. I had my uncle send me her ashes. I’m hoping to get a commemorative tattoo in September.
My mom’s wife isn’t doing well at all. She has been moved to a facility that will care for her 24/7.
With dialysis 3 times a week, a stroke, endless pneumonia and not her big toe is getting necrotic. It seems never ending and understandable that most days she wants to give up. It’s so hard being so far away and the borders closed.
Another year without my sweet boys. They just turned 23 on the 27th. I miss them so much it hurts. I just wish they would talk to me.
I’m drifting through my days in a fog and crying myself to sleep at night. Living alone except for my 2 kitties I am becoming that crazy cat lady. I am oddly ok with that. I can have resting bitch face and no one bugs me. I don’t have to worry if my partner is cheating on me. And I can come and go as I please.
So a lot of dark days without my family, but it’s giving me time for self reflection and self love, something I’ve never really done, but my heart really needs. Anywho, I will try and be around.