Felt like leaving a mental health update here.

I’m honestly not doing too hot right now. I think I’m going through a difficult time of some spring or April anxiety or stress or depression. I don’t even know or understand why I feel this way. It might be the changing weather, or that I’m drinking too much caffeine or I’m under a lot of stress with keeping my physical health and sleep schedule in check, or my autism or over sensory to loud noise is at its limit or just…a lot of things, really. But managing my sleep schedule has been a struggle for over the past week now.

I don’t know, but I feel like I’m really struggling right now mentally, and I just wanna get through this last week of April and next month of May so that, hopefully, around June and July, I can start working out a lot more, play some Mario games (like Tennis Fever and Jamboree), go see movies, and just at least try to have a good time.

I’ll still have to watch my younger brothers all summer long (who were loud as hell all afternoon today when I was watching them while my parents were out, AND they were playing horribly disgusting games on Roblox), but on the plus side, I get paid $100 by my parents and instead of getting up at 5 AM to get them on a school bus every morning that is never on time, I think I’ll actually be able to sleep in and relax a bit.

I just really wanna get to summer already and for this period of anxiety and stress to pass over so that I can have some form of peace in my life. Again, I don’t understand why I’m going through these feelings, but…I just really wanna have a peaceful summer, and I honestly just wanna enjoy every day that I’m here with the people in the fandom that I love while doing the things I love. (Sadly though, focusing on my hobbies and interests lately has been challenging this past week or so.)


So yeah. Here’s hoping that this will all pass over quickly in time. Hope y’all are staying safe out there.