Okay, once again, for everyone out there who wants to know than I will tell, I've gone through this shit more times than I can count because Sin decided to post a journal and apparently that's all the evidence everyone needs to start the name calling and all the "DUMP HER ASS, SHE'S A STUPID BITCH, BLAH, BLAH, BLAH."

Okay first off, I don't mind porn or any other form of things related to it, I just don't like it when it involves YOUR OWN PARTNER in the process of drawing or making it. And yes, I did say what Sin posted on his most recent journal, I don't particularly like porn but I have watched it before, I prefer hentai to porn because it's not real people, but I said what I said to him because I was upset, I'm human I can get upset just like anyone else, it was a spur of the moment thing.

Sin and I have been together for four years and have been mostly happy, but every now and then we find ourselves arguing about something, and it's usually the subject of his porn drawings. I seem to forget about it every now and then but then I find the feelings of uncomfortableness creep up on me... so we argue, which isn't really arguing anymore, it's more like a depressed conversation that ends with us talking as if we wanted to die in that very moment.

But the point of this journal goes out to everyone who is commenting on his journal calling me names and assuming I'm the seed of satan and have come to rob him of his happiness. Please, anyone who has been doing this, I hope you have some great evidence to why you should only follow what Sin says and therefore bash on me.

You can think what you want, but please try and see the other side of the story before trolling yourselves silly. First off, I asked Sin over a year ago that I didn't feel comfortable with his drawings after I saw one that he had done for a FEMALE friend, so I commented and told him how I felt, he proceeded to stop for awhile and he had no problem doing so. (I can give you the link to the comments if you so desire) No arguments or anything, we were perfectly happy. I can't remember when but some time after somethings happened, which I'm not willing to say, but after that we were in rough waters for a bit, but it got better, and again sometime later he started his porn drawings again, I tried to ignore them but once again I finally said something and we argued about it, I got to hear things like "You're the only one who's hurt by my drawings," and other things that disregarded my raw feelings for the subject, so after awhile I became sour over it and my hatred for the drawings grew, it wasn't that I hated what he did, but how he did it and who it drew it for. What I'm saying is, How i look at his drawings, is how he looks at my feelings when he draws them. So we have a bit of a clash of mixed feelings going on here.

Believe me, Sin is my partner, I want him to be happy, this is the one thing about him that drives me crazy and I obviously wish he would stop but I can't make him, but I don't have to like it or act like I do. But honestly, you people on here commenting like you are, do you even have any idea what it's like to go through some of the shit some people do? Sin and I have managed to put a shit ton of stuff behind us to make room for a better future together, but this seems to be the one thing stopping us from getting there. It's not just me, it takes two people to cause a problem between them, and this one just seems to have no good solution, I let him draw his stuff, he's happy, I feel hurt and I will probably get cranky and snap at him for it later; on the other hand, he doesn't draw it, he's unhappy, and well, depressed... I get yelled at by people who could use a good lesson in getting their facts straight, and yeah. There's no real great way to settle this.

but the jest of what I want to say is this, I don't care if Sin favorites, watches, draws anything that has to do with porn, I just don't like it if It's him and another girl. Like in his drawings, That's honestly the one thing that bothers me, or real life porn with only the woman in the picture or video. I know a lot of girls who hate when their boyfriend/husband does that. And when you talk about mutual relationship, it doesn't consist of living with one partner who revolves around drawing and watching porn as a hobby while the other partner deals with it so he can be happy and she has to watch him get off on some other girl other then the one in the room with him.

And by the way, just like anyone else I have feelings, you don't know what been going on with me or Sin or anyone else that exists in my life, you can't tell me my reasons and that I'm wrong for what they are. That makes you look ignorant. Yes, Sin is venting because he is upset, and with him being that way I tend to be that way to, I don't normally vent about whatever, I usually just talk to Sin because I can really only talk to him.

I'm hoping one day I may be able to look past what he draws and likes, but it's hard to do so when the things you've experienced are exactly like it. Everyone on here can continue to be "grown ups" and cuss me out for what my boyfriend posts on a vent journal, again, please be wiling to get all your evidence before taking your time to write your well-thought-out rant about me being a "bitch ass, who needs to be dumped."