So my ex decides to send me a wonderful set of MMS messages regarding here dating some guy who looks to be like 65 or so years old. She states this is of course in error and that she was trying to send them to her friend, I imagine the guy in the photo. So then this got me to thinking. Why was I angry? Truth is... I think it is my sense of competition that makes me think I should be one step ahead of her in all stages of life as I consider her to be incompetent. Do I feel jealousy because she is dating/having intercourse with someone else? Not at all. She was outside of my sphere of emotional influence the day she went out the door for good. I have no intention of ever getting back together with her so if anything this was annoying since she forcibly inserted her life and circumstances into my field of vision. As such I now have to evaluate my feelings on the issue and decide how I feel. I feel... Hmm... I feel cold really. I don't want to get involved with another person purely on physical motive right now. I do not wish for anything permanent that will bind me to another person at this juncture. Truthfully, the most I will consider would be a long standing dating scenario cause I don't feel like getting married again. Did it once, it gave me a wonderful kid and a shitty ex I want to excise from my life like a tumor but has to be allowed to fester and rot for at least a year due to laws and regulations. This was never in my script for how life should go but of course it happened anyway. It is a learning experience so I take away from it a certain level of life lessons but are they all positive? Probably not. I am a reactionary when it comes to dealing with other people. I deal with situations and events as they come my way. I simply detest indirect conflict like this since it seems little better than a pissing match. But sharing is caring right? Yeah right... Anyway, just a few thoughts before work. That is all.