now I'm finished with uploading all of the old stuff I wanted to share here. the latest submissions are gold and Ambar... they show the improvement in using colours compared to my older coloured stuff.
the next submissions will be up to date and hopefully show more improvement.

I started this gallery to "document" this improvement... and to get more motivation to make myself happy with drawing till the fingers bleed.
I had a little spark of talent in my youth I neglected terribly, later I destroyed every try with excessive and destructive self-criticism. so I laid down my pencils for years. thanks to the inspiring work of a great artist I decided to start again two or three years ago.

I'm accepting now that I'm at the beginning of a long road and that this hobby will perhaps never be more than a hobby, something you can spend your time on only when your duties are fulfilled. overall I accept the mistakes I make on the long way - there'd be no learning without mistakes.
I've found a way to be just happy about the process of finishing something that was only in my head before. It satifies me somehow, and as long there's fun, there's improvement too, which is even more fun and leads to more improvement.
a very positive vicious circle I want to keep alive.

because all the watches, favorites and comments show me that it's not totally wrong what I'm doing, I thank you all for this kind of support.