list is not exhaustive, or in order.

1) having no internet
2) having no smartphone
3) my dad
4) my mom
5) rest of my family
6) the beatles (why is there a beatles fandom and why so much rpf?)
7) running out of meds
8) the passage of time
9) a world with no furry art or anime
10) navigating the world as a mentally ill autist
11) when a recipe is unreasonably not vegan
12) dust and the way my hair sheds like crazy
13) my neighbor probably hearing me use my vibrator (oops)
14) car insurance
15) taxes
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21) my psychotic symptoms worsenimg