I'm never on here... mostly because I never see a whole lot of reason to be... I don't really have anything to add to the community... Hell, I'm on FL more than I am here. But I just feel like making this thing, mostly to vent and stuff. This is one place Kendra (aka mate/girlfriend/whatever) won't look or check or anything, and it's really. I don't mind her reading what I write and everything, but it's nice to have a safe space to say things I guess. Anyways, working at Safeway... kinda sucks, I'm having a lot of problems with my manager right now, and customers are stupid and I fucking hate people, but I love who I'm working with. But my manager is... I guess I'd say she's fairly incompetent... she changes my schedule without alerting me that it's been changed (I get my schedule on a weekly basis, every thursday and the work week goes from sunday to Saturday and I just found out my schedule got changed, and I wasn't told, I basically have to check my schedule every day to make sure it hasn't been changed on me. But other than that, well, my birthday's coming up, Monday, actually... And... life is... hard, it's wonderful having Kendra back (she used to be in Arizona, and then Waldport, whereas I live in Springfield Or...) but things are hard... Only a few people know that I'm trans, my parents will never accept me as a man and I'm pretty sure when I start T and shit they're going to fucking ridicule me like nobody's business. And I can look forward to a birthday getting called female and by my female name instead of the name I chose, and I just... I'm going to feel so dysphoric, and on top of that my "werewolf time" is going to be around the same time, yeah, tmi idc. And my room is a mess, whenever Kendra's over it just turns into a giant mess which increases my anxiety and just bothers me... because I love her and all... but she just leaves shit everywhere, like right now there's a bowl of clam dip on my bed and soda bottles everywhere and just a giant mess everywhere... And I never get sex... which us understandable since she's asexual, but... I.... like sex... I want it.... and she always says that if I want it then to just ask, but then I ask and she says no and I'm just like okay.... and then I feel like shit because she never wants to have sex with me, and she's so fucking inconsistent... she never does anything she says she is or anything.... and it just... I need more... I need at the very least some fucking consistency instead of a bunch of empty promises... and I don't know... but yeah, this is huge because I have a lot to vent, and honestly I have a lot more, too, but I'm stopping now...