Well, what to say... 2025 has been quite a complex and challenging year, I am going to separate the journal into subtitles in order to better organize my thoughts.

Losses and bad news

It is always good to start with the bad news because it is the most difficult to forget as it usually tends to initiate a process of catharsis or a search for solutions. So, since they are going to be difficult to forget, I prefer that they are always the first ones to start that cumbersome process as early as possible.

At the beginning of the year, one of my dear colleagues lost her life after a car accident. At the beginning we thought she was fine, because she was wearing her seat belt, but her intestines were pressed to such an extent that in a few days she developed necrosis and died. She had just received her degree, after having lost her mother a few months ago, sometimes life enjoys being miserable.

After the winter vacations, my best friend called me and told me she had cancer, cervical cancer, just two months after separating from her husband. It seems that the disease has been there for a while, so we don't know if it is possible for the treatment to be fully successful. In our country, the state takes care of a large part of expensive treatments or rare diseases, until the arrival of Javier Milei who, despite being against the law, does not deliver the drugs. Fortunately, and thanks to the solidarity of her co-workers, she was able to have the treatment in a timely manner. When we get together we try not to talk about it because she has chosen not to tell her little son about it, now we just have to wait for the treatment to work.

And finally, about three weeks ago, my cat went cat. This Tuesday I found him in a vacant lot near home, only half of his head was left. This dear little animal had been with us for years and we were very fond of him. At least now we can close a cycle, knowing what happened to him is sad but it gives us some peace.

Career and personal growth

This year has been extremely demanding but it has helped me to get closer to the reality of my profession. On the other hand, I have grown much closer to my loved one and every day that goes by I see a future together more and more possible. A lot of personal growth in this year, a lot of affection returned from many people in such a dark time, are things that allow me to say that I feel really content and firm.

Literature and stories

As a consequence of the previous point, this has been the great sacrifice I have had to make. I think I have only been able to write four stories during this year, still having in debt a request and a gift that are taking me a lot of time to finish. I hope that in the course of these weeks I will be able to finish at least one more story before the end of the year.

As for reading, well, hundreds of hours of nsfw reading and some sfw stuff. Among the most relevant, I have to say that having found “Fried Green Tomatoes at the Whistle Stop Cafe” is a cornerstone I didn't know I needed in my life, I guess this is what religious people feel when reading their holy books: peace, acceptance, fervor, fullness. Thank you Fannie Flagg.

In conclusion

I am scared, I am very scared because life is still life, tempestuous and surprising. I feel very confident about the things I have but I keep thinking that everything that keeps me on track is nothing more than a handful of sand, I have to hold on tight so I don't lose everything in a careless mistake.

I'm a brutish creature with imperfections gushing out of me like a fountain, but my friends are always there to help me so I guess I've done something right. So I hope 2026 will be a little kinder to the weak of heart like me, I for myself will continue to try to be a better person or at least not add more crap to the filth that is abundant in this world.

Happy New Year and read a lot!