Over the past few months, my mental health has taken a stark downturn, and I have very little motivation to work on things that are not my main project/interests.

I talked to my psychiatrist, and without going into detail, I told them the kind of art I drew, commissions I took, and we both came to the conclusion.

snuff fetishism has led to me idealizing suicide, and even been making me fantasize about doing it, and I have even came close to setting up everything to go through with it.

So, as of now I have decided to leave the furry community as a whole, knowing that with the mark I have left on it, my past will come back up again, and frankly.

Im scared. I'm terrified of dying, and as time has gone on my snuff fetish has made me more and more uncomfortable and has been less of a turn on.

I have met many great people here, and I plan to stay in touch with them ^^

But for now, this is goodbye. until maybe I'll come back again.

I do have a Deviantart, where you can find my non fetishy, non furry stuff that I love and enjoy posting, here https://www.deviantart.com/melonchans

I will NOT be deleting my account. I want the art I have posted here to remain for those who enjoy it.

this journal is a bit hastily put together, but after I post it, I will be logging out of Furaffinity (as far as I can see) permanently.

if I do come back, it will be under a new username, and be a SFW account.

I thank everyone for the oppurtunities I have come across here, and for the laughs we've shared.

Goodbye, See you on the flip side :3c