It's difficult when you first begin to open your ears, and then your mind, to possibilities, any possibilities really, but particularly your own gender. The roles that go with the 'two' that you are taught, and the characteristics that supposedly go with them. After a lot of thought and reading, it is even more difficult to define yourself when you realize that you are not solely male or female. Perhaps it is your body that feels off, the ways that others perceive you, (in my case I've clarified that being perceived as and BEING female in body is not what has bothered me) but it is how your persona, your personality, the YOU UNDERNEATH that is also being perceived as one gender or the other. I've always made jokes to others or thought to / of myself as more masculine in mind than feminine, but that seems to be just as false. Figuring out that mentally, what is called the personality, what makes up and fills this shell called a body, I suppose soul, is not either or....is the beginning of a mind boggle. So stated for the first time to myself, I am content with my body as female, and visually perceived as a woman, being comfortable within the skin, I am. Within my own head, what runs this woman body is not either, but best defined as androgyne or androgynous. How is it that i have never noticed? Was it because I never has the right understanding of the word(s)? Mayhap I was afraid to apply them to myself? How can I be comfortable within the skin, nay, happy with my body and the perception that it gives to others, but not within the mental structure inside my own head and knowing that only those that really know me will ever know that while I am shell pleased, and yet not content with the supposed mental format that should go with it? And in my case does not. I am an androgynous person (or androgynous mentality / personality), that revels with the joy at the body, and would not change a thing, of a woman. Talk about a world changing view.