(If you read this and have no clue what im talking bout, then dont worry bout it. This only pertains to a select few)

Some of you know what's been going on with me, and some of you wonder where my minds been lately if I've talked with you outside of the site and struck up a relationship of any kind.

To explain it all would take too long to type and most of ya don't wanna read my problems for two hours so here's the summed up version.

Over the years I've had a steady decline in friends due to my attitude for the most part. As I grew up, I didn't want to let go of the feeling of being the center of everyone's worlds. When that quit happening I started becoming reclusive. There would be times that I would push others away when I could have my way or get their attention. More often that not, I would see posts on here or any other social media about how great friends are, then I look at myself and my lack of friends and get depressed.

The biggest thing that irritated me was I would make plans with friends in town but ten minutes later because they had other plans. If you don't wanna hang out, say so not lie bout it...

I know its damn near impossible to rebuild a bridge from its ashes, and that's not what I'm asking. What I want to do is build new ones in place of the ashes. If you think that its possible and are willing to help me learn how to act right and not put myself first in others lives, will you please forgive me?