i'm just standing still and it seems everyone is in such a rush. today just as any other day i can only hope i can achieve more the next and always cherish the last. i feel somehow like my life everyone's life for that matter is a tape being recorded. due to unfortunate circumstances i don't have as much tape as everyone else it does not matter by the time i go i know i'll have done something right because every one of those days and for the many to come i always ask for more. i'm an alien to others because of this. they look at me strangely asking why i'm not like them why i smile every day and walk tall. my response is i know who i am and they can't change that no one can take that away from me only myself, don't really intend to either.i only write this for you to understand why i write i don't write to focus on pain and sorrow. i write to say that's all in the past that i put behind and i hope you will follow. i write in hope for a better tomorrow. in hope that at least one of you will listen. the leader is human and man passes bu the moral and teaching of the man stay here as long as someone breaths life into me and many others like me once i and they are gone to continue and create their own. i write in hopes of you