Hey, guys. It's been a while, I don't even know if anyone pays attention to my page anymore tbh. But, I just wanted to say something:

To those whom I'm friends with IRL, if it seems like I've completely ignored you, forgoten you, or anything along those lines, please know I'm truly sorry and don't mean any harm from it whatsoever. Things had not been okay, psychologically, with me and I desperately needed to isolate myself to get things figured out and come back as a better/healthier person than who I was.
At christmas, I reached out to someone to apologize for my absence, as it had been quiet some time since I last spoke to them, and now I feel like they want nothing more to do with me. I'm terrified to reach out to anyone now in fear that the backlash will be the same. I don't know what to do anymore, truthfully. I'm not sure how to reach out and apologize, without feeling like whomever it is will tell me that the essentiially no longer care.

I'm now back on 2 medications, and currently being evaluated for a multitude of things, the main things being Autism and ADHD, but also seeing if I need a few new medications to help with whatevers going on in my head with my already diagnosed issues.

Things are slowly getting better, I've been managing to at least keep my home decently clean now, but hopefully with proper medications I can deep clean my home and keep it that way

Again, I'm sorry if I've hurt you. I'm sorry if it seems like I've just vanished, that I don't care, but that's not the truth. I love you guys truly, I just needed time for myself. If you understand and still want to be friends, thank you. If not then I understand, and wish you the best

Thank you for reading this, if you did.