It is very hard to find your path in today's world....you can choose to deteriorate or move on with full strength. I acknowledge my weaknesses and powers..it always hurts when somebody poses as a friend then despises you, spreading rumours, misleading information, fake accusations, outright lies - leading a smear-campaign to isolate you from support and friends.. and weaponizes everything you do and say against you...to drive you away hoping you'll be too weak and give up eventually making you run away...again. Although I don't categorize myself as a 'regular fur' and I can stand out...my heart lies within the community which allows me to find peace. I will never possess a fursuit, I will never attend many furry cons to be groomed and assimilated..to the mainstream or shall we say the hive-mind?. I know it's better to remain at the outskirts and not thinking too much of what I might be missing. Social interaction, keeping in touch with people is good enough for me and maybe helping the others who are in distress. When you care about someone else too much you're a people-pleaser and it can destroy you...when you lead your followers you're called a dictator. Many toxic people stand in the way causing harm, intolerance and they never recognize you nor respect you. Well, like in any other closed hierarchy or social circle be it either at school or work environment...such things as bullying, gossiping, bossing and mobbing exist. I knew very well what kind of environment I return to. But I refuse to run away, I must remain strong and fight for my cause and what I believe is right, filtering off all the bad 'noise' and securing my serenity of thoughts and wisdom.

Here are my current life goals as such:

1. travel and escape isolation (most important as digital detox)
2. stop avoiding people and being too prejudicious/sensitive (social gatherings & events)
3. lead by example through success (look how you can improve if you have strong will and dedication)
4. not fighting my own personality in the process ( I have the right to be what I am, how I feel to be)
5. forgive my enemies (most difficult task)