On 7th of October 2025 my oldest big brother passed away, taken by cancer. This happened only about half-year after my youngest big brother died to intestinal disease and like with him, he was also still quite young, only 46 years old. I have three big brothers and two of them are gone now. Needless to say I'm utterly devastated deeply depressed about all of this, having lost two important people in my life this same year. I haven't even been able to grieve in peace as there have been all kinds of chaos caused by these constant tragedies, so many stresses and hardships I really don't know how to even explain any of it.

All this pain and sorrow is getting completely unbearable and I feel like I'm about to have a complete mental breakdown. I know I should stay strong and that is what my brothers wanted me to do, but it's getting so hard. I just want this pain to go away.

The work on Karamador comic and other art continues normally however, as it's one of the things that gives me something else to think about, though at times I'm starting to feel like my art is starting to get worse due to my stress, sorrow and anxiety. But I will try my best to stay strong and carry on, and I hope you all are doing well.