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I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM GET OUT OF MY HEAD

YOU ACTED SEXUAL TOWARDS ME AND ASKING A PIC OF MY BODY

TELLING ME I HAVE A BIG EGO FOR DEFENDING MYSELF AND YOU KEPT ATTACKING MY FEELINGS THEN BRINGING UP THE VOICES IN MY HEAD OUT OF NOWHERE WHEN I SPECIFICALLY ASKED YOU TO NOT TO AND STOP

WHAT THE HELL IS EGO OF SELF-LOATHING???

I CAN'T VENT TO ANYONE WITHOUT THEM SAYING ITS NEGATIVE BECAUSE IT IS NEGATIVE YOU STUPID FUCK

OH- YOU WANNA BE A GAY FEMBOY??? FUCK YOU

I HOPE YOU STAY CLOSETED IN THAT STRICT FUCKING HELL OF A RELIGION

GOOD THING I LEFT IT

NOT TO MENTION YOU DID FORBIDDEN THINGS AGAINST THE RELIGION AND YOU TRY TO ACT LIKE A SAINT

DON'T EVER USE AUTISM OR YOUR BIPOLAR DISORDER AS AN EXCUSE FOR BEING DISMISSIVE AND PASSIVE AGGRESSIVE AFTER I ASKED YOU FOR A SAFE SPACE TO TALK....Those things are not related to being an asshole

Hahaha... "I'm giving, an EXAMPLE"

After I yelled at you that I didn't say anything about my voices in that conversation. If you made a mistake, own it and apologise for it. You have broke my boundaries so many times and I gave many chances.

3 CHANCES IS TOO MUCH FOR A GUY WHO STOLE MY FIRST KISS....

HONESTLY, I DON'T EVEN CONSENT TO THAT KISS AT THAT MOMENT... IT FELT FORCED...I CAN'T TAKE IT WITH THE MANIPULATION AND GASLIGHTING ANYMORE I WANT TO KILL MYSELF SO BADLY FOR A DECADE

ITS BEEN 11 YEARS AND I CAN'T HANDLE WITH THIS LONG LASTING DEPRESSION AND A STUPID GUY WHO WANT SEX FROM ME

GO BACK TO YOUR EX WHO YOU SAID SHE WAS BETTER AND GIVING YOU NUDE PICS EVERYDAY EVEN WHEN SHE HAS A BOYFRIEND AT THAT TIME

I am someone who can't understand my own feelings and being a stupid ISTP, yet I can UNDERSTAND WHEN SOMEONE IS BEING A JERK AND BEING EMOTIONLESS

I HOPE HE FINDS A NEW BOYFRIEND WHO CAN TEACH HIM ABOUT EMPATHY AND BEING SUPPORTIVE BECAUSE HE IS SO BLINDED BY HIS OWN HEAD

Nobody taught me about empathy or anything,

why is it so hard to ask for help without being treated like shit each time IM SCARED OF REACHING OUT BECAUSE WHEN I DO, THEY SEE ME AS STUPID


STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID

I AM AN IDIOT FOR LETTING OTHERS GET CLOSE TO ME AND GET BROKEN OVER OVER OVER OVER AGAIN

I hate my relationships, each one of them... they made me terrible, being used, insulted and I learned that my feelings are just a bomb... killing everyone's mood and feelings in a instant. My father is right, I should repressed them like normal people do...

I hate my emotions, don't let me have emotions please.