Like i know it's not really that weird of a liked kink, i mean a ton of people are into pregnancy stuff!... But honestly i don't know if it just seems weird from an outside view given i'm a trans girl and often want to see my sona pregnant... I honestly don't know what it is but a lot of the sight of it just brings me some sort of catharsis more than any sort of lust most points, but sometimes it's hard not to question if it's something i shouldn't do.

I mean i'm not going to stop truthfully, but it's just hard not to wonder if it's wrong in a way? Being disingenuous?... I don't really know how to describe the thought at that point, but it just makes me wonder if people are thinking I'm just putting on an act given me being trans and i don't really know what brought it up at this point. I know Mera is my sona and i treat her as a bit of a representation of me, but at the same time it's more of a fantastical version that could do things i only wish i could do at times, some sort of wish fulfillment for wanting to experience what i could only really dream of at points as much as i long for such an experience that i know i'll probably never be able to know in my lifetime here.

I know none of it's real, i mean Mera's an eldritch slime gal that has the freedom to do whatever hear heart desires! But i suppose with her having connection to me it's just hard not to feel like it's wrong at the same time. Honestly at this point i'm thinking it's more the stress from work and headaches from allergies talking, but i think it just feels a bit better to get my thoughts out rather than just letting them mull about in my head until they start getting unhealthy.