what is a friend?
what is a lover?
what is a significant other?
these questions puzzle me more often than i would like.
in the dark and cold night i wonder.
until i find the answer buried in the ashes of my past.
all of these things are special places in ones heart and soul.
with these places comes something more or so I'm told.
i watch over my friends and the people i consider my true friends i hold and hug and kiss and give my all to them.
when i find myself contemplating horrible things i think back to what that might do to the ones i love.
i speak not of my family i speak not of my acquaintances i speak of my lovers my friends my pride.
i must stay strong always for them i must always watch over them for without me watching over them i feel that i may miss something truly dear and i will lose them.
losing someone from my arms hurts dearly but only if i truly lose them. for to truly lose them i must no longer be a part of their life. but when i fall from their heart and i fall into another category it may sting but it never hurts and i am there for them forever and i will not fear.
for where there is the slightest glimmer of light in this cold hard hateful world there is hope for a better tomorrow.
so now i shall sit back and watch over all that is mine weather they know it or not i shall be here for them for all time.
to call on.
to support them when they are in need.
for whatever they need.

my love to all of my friends, family, and lovers.