My healt has been terrible. since foxday i has had 39.8c fever,womiting and my legs couldt carry so i crawld. now im been in hospital 4 weeks and the diagnosi isnt good. I got scar lung and something is wrong in my liver, belly,kidneys and bowles. the chances was givet at 60% for me to recover. To top this all my birthday is coming whic many would think is the happy day but to me it isnt. When i was in kindercarten i never got invited to anybodys birthdays and same happed in elementary school. When it was my time to celebrate i invited ever guy from my class and got all awesome plans and oarents bought the snacks and mom made the cake. I sitted in kitchen and looked the window whit full of hope and happines , waiting somebody to come to my party. I waited and waited but nobody ever came. I was crushed hard and cryet. When my parents asked other kids parents they just answerd: we never got the invite, we dont want our kid too spent time whit your, we didnt have time. My early teens i just gave up and locked myself in the room for my birthday. Family toke me to eat my favorit place whic i keep close to my heart. This year i tryet again to have small party but it came in bad time becos there was couple cons in finland and one huge Nordic Furdance. So it hasnt been my best month but im not giving up.