Before I start, I seriously regret the random name I chose to use when I first made this account. Very few people here in Furaffinity know me as Ulol. An insignificant person who usually joins in the art streams of people and asks questions and tries to learn how to better himself through their drawings.

It's been so many years since I first made this account. I intended it to be a blank identity that will protect the real me from being blown right out of my closet. For the longest time I've been content with most of my status both here in the net and on real life. I pretend to be a normal straight guy irl, but with this account i can fully explore my gay furry side with minimal risk of me being found out. And it worked for a long time until now, and it still will in the near future.

But among the other things I've learned since meeting valuable people in real life and interacting with people as a nobody in the furry community... is my growing curiosity to finally interact with the community with a part of the real me and not as a blank stalker account. Today... I can say that I'm taking a brave, risky step forward and actually posting my first porn drawing publicly.

Now I know that to all of you, this isn't a big deal. But for me and the situation I found myself in, I'm honestly scared for someone to connect this account to the real me. That's why I've avoided posting my drawings here so no one can notice similarities to a certain artist in the internet (me) who claims to be completely clean and straight. I've gone as far as supplying false information on this page to misdirect people. That and when I did interact with the community as a nobody, I told them that I'm a noob and a beginner at art, when I actually have nearly a decade of experience with drawing, both as a hobby and professionally.

I've done a smaller step before by using literature. It's harder to connect who's writing is who's anyhow and it allowed me a taste of what it feels like to share my deepest, darkest desires. I get to keep anonymity and get a small scrap of taste of posting yiff. The story was so atrocious that i eventually took it off myself, but my goal was achieved. It helped me want more and now I'm actually here doing something about it.

There's the chance that I'll be found out... yes. I've known a lot of furry artists in real life and in turn a lot of them know my art style... but honestly... to hell with it. :P This is a risk I'm now willing to take. After years of being shut completely in the closet, of my own volition, I took a peak forward. And now I'm opening the door a little wider for me to see the outside regardless of whether people see and recognize the person behind the door. I'm not going to go out of the closet yet. But with ease and comfort do I take this step forward that most people will definitely see as nothing to make a big deal out of.

And it feels good. :)