Hello people; pardon me but I need to get this off my chest…

This morning, about 3:45, I woke up from a dead of sleep to my own stomach full of nausea… Within the next few minutes, it went from nausea to vomiting and diarrhea (sorry if that sickens some of you). As I write this, about an hour later, I still feel very sick to my stomach… I’m drinking Powerade Zero for the electrolytes and that’s not helping… Fact is, this happened last week too and before that, last month!

The point is I’M TIRED OF BEING SICK and on top of that I HAVE NO INSURANCE!

Oh, I have ‘some’ insurance but it only covers doctors’ visits and my insulin for my Type 1 Diabetes, not even Hospital or ER visits... My former doctor was such a quack; he didn’t know what he was doing… He never took the time to listen to me and my problems and instead basically handed my prescription and told me to get the hell out. He never did anything to help me to figure out what’s wrong with me, he said I had a heart condition and gave me the medicine. I’m asking myself “Where the hell is the oath you took to help a human in need of assistance?!” I guess it never entered the door when he came for the first time. Thankfully, I will be getting a new doctor… But that doesn’t help this situation…

I suffer from severe Type 1 Diabetes, which I have to take about 10 insulin shots a day; Manic Depression, Severe Anxiety Disorder, and a Sleeping Disorder, which the State is helping to pay for the medicine, therapist visits (which is good for my Asperger’s Syndrome and my Borderline Multiple Personality Disorder) and psychiatrist visits; I also have a bad GI track and a heart condition and STILL the government refuses to help me to get on Disability! I’ve worked 10 years, did schooling, and they can’t see I want help so I can get back on my feet so I can work again! I don’t like being like this! I didn’t ask to be like this!

I JUST WANT HELP!

God, I know this sound like begging, and ranting, but this is also a prayer. You know what ails me, and You know my needs. You said that You have a plan for all of us but all I’m asking for is a little help… I’m tired of the sicknesses… I just want help and healing…

Maybe someone will see this and help me… It’s worth a shot…

-HK