I'm not sure how, but, with how life has been tough and it doesn't seem to get better- instead of drowning in my bad habits and a mild porn addiction. I might just try to create something, no matter how degraded it is.

I feel guilty, but whenever I think of myself jerking off and not giving something to the world, whatever it is, I feel even more guilty.
I've had this account just to collect material, never created anything of value to me, and I wanna change that.
So I'll slowly try to make something real, see where it goes. I suck at learning, and this journey's gonna FUCKING suck.

If anyone is willing to reach out to give me pointers, and please don't just bombard me with anatomy tutorials, I'd be more than willing to talk- since I literally am starting from ZEROOOO.