Been a few hard months for this digi. Been doing my best to be there for my family. My dad has lymphoma(follicular stage 3) and has started his cancer battle. Been noticing a cough back in Jan of this year and in late Feb I told him to go get checked. Because his cousins mom passed from cancer and she talked about how it started with a lingering cough. So I told him to get checked please and I bugged him and he finally did in early May.

Late May my dad gets told he needs to come in to get some more scans and test done. So before that starts my parents decide to take me to Pismo beach CA for a car show because im dealing with personal stuff and my dad wanted to make sure I was ok and wanted to spend time with me. Gawd man this brings up some hard to deal with emotions because my dad's dealing with this mentally and he wants to check up on me and make sure im ok. Gawd man this is so fucking tough. So we enjoy our weekend together and made some great memories. So he gets these test done and more test done and I see him losing a lot of weight.

My dad's 6'3 and was at 260 lbs. Now he is at 196 lbs. So i was getting scared and my mom was a wreck. So im doing my best to be there for my mom and sis and my dad. Doing what I can to make it easier on them. Then while at work my mom's calling me crying saying my dad has lymphoma and they found all these masses in his neck and intestines and stomach and I just lost it at work. Im not the most emotional guy and it takes a lot to make me cry. I pulled myself together and listened to what my mom was asking of me and told her I will be there for her. Nothing breaks ur heart like ur mom begging u to please help her because she needs the support for ur dad. Im getting emotional remembering it. Shit is hard. Been making sure my dad spirits are up and spending as much time with him as possible. Ive been making all these plans for me and my parents to be moving to the coast and getting a house with a mother in law so they can come with me and this happens and ive been working so hard and been saving for so long.

Like fuck man life is just so cruel at times. It broke me when my mom told me my dad said to her that he's not ready to go. He wants to be around still for me and my sis and for my mom and jeez I shed some tears on that one. Gawd I Love my DAD and all I want is more time with him. Im just not ready to say good bye to him or as he would say seeya later. Ugh gawd this is all bullshit. I know I got this because I have to. I gotta be my families rock and gotta hold my family up when they fall apart. I just needed to vent because I can't anywhere else because my family is all over my social media. Wishing u all the best day and remember to hug ur folks and tell them u love them!!

Update 12/10/25.
My dad is doing better after a few session of chemotherapy. His swollen neck is no more and looks normal. He is slowly gaining weight again and ive been helping him the best i can with his stubborn ass. He doesnt listen to me lol. He isnt out of the woods yet. He is doing chemo till march of next year and im just scared whats gonna happen. Im terrified for him and my mom. This has made me realize whats really important and how much just showing up helps and shows how much u love and care by just being present. No words need to be said just being in my folks livingroom with my dad as he watches tv. Im getting as much time as i can with him because in march we will know if the chemo is working and if he is out of danger. Im not letting myself be to positive because i know all to well how it can go. In other news this digi is also going to be officially divorced in March. Got court in early march and it sucks imma have to pay him a good amount of money but im just happy to start fresh and im looking forward to start dating again after everything is signed. I moved to be closer to new job and im liking it so far.Then i got court going on now for me with a wrongful termination. So rn i got 2 settlement offers and im holding out for a lil more. Daddy needs a new big house and some nice cars and to retire and never work again. Heres to 2026 and if all goes well ill have my dad for many years to come and i will be in a new house and my family along with myself will never have to work again. Just travel and enjoy life!!!