so .. in those moderately rare instances wherein i get a spike of passion for something and offer to make a fun thing for fun or free or whatever ... this is not common for me but it can be a spark to help motivate me to continue making work considering that no matter how many times i put im open for commissions people hardly reach out and those that do vanish the moment numbers are brought up

these combined make for a very .. .. ... i do not have the word .. if i did it is not coming from the back of my head like it should on account that potential realization may cause a different kind of cascade failure

anyways .. im sorry if i make the mistake of offering to make something for fun because that felt like the correct choice to make

i may learn to stop offering as it seems that people are not .. or it seems anyways that its not something people want