Who am I?

My name is Dreamer. I have been Dreamer for 4 years since my life really began.I have many brothers and sisters that are not blood-related and I love them all very much. I'm on the border of leaving teenage-hood behind and becoming an adult.But then again, I've been an adult for a while with childlike tendencies in between. I'm a colorful character. I'm uniquely diverse. I've figured some things out and attained quite a lot of scars in the process. I have friends of all kinds. I love and like many different polarly opposite things because of the person I am. I don't lie about who I am and I don't sugarcoat my life because I don't believe that it's being fair to the people searching for a chance to get to really know you, love you, accept you and befriend you for who you are. I have too many philosophies and theories because I am a Dreamer.


I've nearly died when I was born, I've been a cutter. I'm not ashamed of it. I have scars on my arm that you can still see on some days. I don't look at them and feel ashamed. Rather, I embrace my weakness and how much stronger I've become because of it. I don't cut anymore and haven't in months. I have Depression and I'm not in therapy or on medication. I've never been in an asylum either. Sometimes I believe I'm incredibly crazy and then I just think I'm normal, if you can call me that ;]


I've dated some real assholes. I've experimented with my sexuality. I've decided who I want to be and whose gonna win. The thing in my head or me? Over time things have been shown to me and I've gained a deeper perspective and understanding because of it. I am open-minded. I am loving, tolerant, understanding, accepting and most likely to become best friends with the nerdy geek in the class that people talk about and make fun of, the kid whose into comic books and all kinds of things. At the same time, I may become the best friend of the guy who listens to Nine Inch Nails and writes dark poetry and has all these warped opinions on the world. That's just me.


I believe in Peace. I hate war. But I think that as long as there is Man, there will always be war. I hate racism, sexism, animal cruelty, homophobia, rape, pedophilia, molestation and things like that. It hurts me, makes me cry. I believe in Justice but I also believed that everything is warped and that there are 3 sides to everything.


Somedays, I'm rainbow bright. I believe in color and beauty and diversity. Other days, I believe in darkness and vintage retribution and closed doors. The thing in my head gives me meaning, it helps me survive as much as it tries to kill me off. Simply because, by fighting it in my head all the time, I've learned how to survive.


On a daily basis, I work with kids and it makes me happy. They've certainly taught me a lot and given me happiness on days that I thought I'd never see the sun again. I'm serious about their safety and love them like my own.


I listen to all kinds of music and my music range can get pretty weird. Depends on the lyrics, the beat and the rhythm. I HATE country and what I like to call 'Bullshit Rap' meaning lyrics that have to do with bitches, hos, booty, money, thugs, and whatnot. I think it's bullshit and I hate it. But if I like the beat, then I'll like the song.


I am accepting of Death. My own death doesn't really scare me anymore. I've never tried to commit suicide. But as I've said before, I have been a cutter. But I can always see my own death pretty vividly in my head and I accept that everyday may be my last. I don't do drugs, don't really drink, not promiscuous, and I don't smoke.


I'm a writer, photographer, teacher,best friend, artist, lover, wife, sister, daughter, philosopher, dreamer, optimist, pessimist, visionary,cousin, warrior, healer, guardian, creator, rebel, punk, rocker, bookworm and revolutionary ♥


My hope in life is to live it to the fullest and to do what I have to to get somewhere I want to be. I hope to travel a lot in the future since I love it.


I have a mate ♥

And, I have a brother on here:


 lonelygabu

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I can't really tell you everything about me. It's really up to you to figure out who I am and if you want to know and be friends with someone like me. I'm not perfect. I'll never be. I'll never want to be. I like being different, I like being an outcast. It gives me color.


I have many likes and dislikes but I won't list that now.


I'm happy where I am. I've grown and changed. I'm happy I let go of so many people, even if it hurt me. I needed to do it because I'm better off without them. So, if this is your first time meeting me, welcome to my life. I lovingly embrace you as a friend and I hope you'll share many moments with me that we'll both remember.


Come figure me out, I dare you ♥


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