THIS IS FROM A STORY THAT I HAVE IN MIND. NOT REAL LIFE.


My body rejects any food I consume. Even meat. I'm tired of the vomiting. If I don't figure out what to feed on and soon, I know that I'm going to perish.

I still think about cat. My mother. That soldier I killed, Aaru. And Okko. Every corpse I’ve seen has had an effect on me. People all around me are dying… and I can’t stop it.

I’m in the woods now. I don’t have shelter. And a fire would be too risky. At least it’s still early autumn. This new fur… it keeps me warm. But it’s only going to get colder.

I hear helicopters and sirens in the distance. They’re looking for me.

Why is this happening?

Why did I transform? What is this new body? Who am I?

So many questions that need answering. But how? When?

I’m not going to get anywhere without any help. There’s only one person besides my sister who I trust… Shade. I could turn on my phone and call him right now. But I’m… I’m too afraid.

…

No. Fear is the enemy. The true enemy. That’s it… eventually I’ll have to reveal myself, but I have to make people not be afraid of me. Be kind. Be helpful, in any way. Tell them what I do know to be true.

But my biggest fears are the greatest to conquer. To reject my fear of death, or to be arrested, tortured and eventually experimented upon. I can not imagine the horrors that Okko’s sister has experienced in the government’s grasp… for fifteen years at that. I have to save her. I promised him.

Shade knows she’s still alive. He has family and friends up in high places in the military. He’s heard rumors, that they keep her alone and as well as can only be expected… just well enough to not break her will. I can’t imagine the kind of fear and darkness she has to experience on a daily basis. I have to be ready for that when I find her. If I find her.