Not much has changed in 5 months, Ex got remarried, which is nice for them. I started taking up drinking as well as other vices. I haven't been in the best state of mind.. I haven't really been active in this community in a while, nor in any community for that matter so my sincere apologies. I feel bad for my lethargic actions or better yet lack of actions. I have goals but haven't seemed to meet any of them. Can't believe it's been a year, time sure does fly. The good news would be that I have finally, reluctantly at the urging of people started to get professional help, lets hope it gets me somewhere. I really hope it does. I don't really have any other alternatives as during this year I have tried all of them. Thank you all for being a part of my life, sorry for all of my shitty depressing posts, but if I don't get it out somewhere then it stays in me bottled up. I wish everyone a wonderful summer to any who read this.