Ok I have a LOT more images to post than I thought I did, also I keep on getting more art and the backlog is basically in the years so that is certainly expected. But... tis kind of nice! Also I'm slowly separating pieces that I want to upload to FA which people are obviously seeing and those pieces that I do not want to upload to FA (typically edits, those of exes, festival of stickers, that sort of thing) so... finally get to clean up the hilariously large picture folder I have been wanting to do something with. Also combing through random shit to find other pictures that somehow never made it into the Muzu/Draz art folder.

Also, fuck it end of year thoughts. Holy crap this year XD it has made me stronger in a lot of ways and flat out DESTROYED me in others. I think I got a lot of better tools at dealing with my clients. The ones that contact me the most (ie 2-3 emails or phone calls per week) still enrage me to no end, but I have ways to put up with them... that being I do not contact them once per email, they get one email a day, usually at the end. And acceptance that not everyone is going to obey my advice. They have an approach they want to do, and they're going to do it, and fuck em. It sucks since it basically is Halo Reach, you know how these things end, but eh, a lot of people are like that. That however carries into...

What destroyed me this year. I think I'm done with unions/the labor movement. I still... support? them I guess? But I don't think I want to work for one ever again. To anyone who is pro union, I applaud you, and I'm not going to stop doing that of course. But WORKING for one? It's horrible. Terrible contracts, no enforcement, and you frequently are worse off than the very people you are fighting for. It's crazy. And very disheartening. It is Christmas eve and in about an hour I have a meeting to attend, am I on leave? Yup. Am I still working? Yyyyyup. Do I have more work to do because of another crazy person who refuses to accept anything the department offers and the org I work for refuses to just tell her to fuck right off? Yyyyup. Am I on leave? Not... really? It is what it is. But I think it's good to bow out, and let a younger crowd start to fill in my place. I'm not leaving immediately from it, just have a 2 year plan if none of these other positions I applied for go the way I want. Granted I'd be hitting pay cap in two years too so... there's that. I could be comfortable staying where I am, but all my complaints AND the fact I don't get student loan forgiveness, AND I get paid less than other attorneys that do what I do is a bit too much of a hit for me to shoulder anymore. I still believe they are a great place to start a career, and a great place to end a career. But... ... I don't really believe that to tell you the truth? I think that's a lie. I would say go to a firm, at least one that will hire a fresh law school grad post bar, they will break you, and if you can handle it you will be all the better. A union will shape you into exactly what you need to be, but your options WILL be considerably more limited should you ever leave. I think this might be one of the pieces of advice my dad gave that I disagree with. He hated firms, and for legit good reasons. They will destroy your life, and make if all about the firm with billables. But you will learn and learn a lot. A union doesn't have that. If I could do it all over again... I'm not sure what I would do really. If i could do everything knowing what would happen with my actions though hell yes I would happily enjoy life with that cheat code XD

But yeah, that is something I have been wanting to get off my chest for awhile, and no better time than the present. Guess I might actually use this journal thing. It's nice and my thoughts are a lot more than just a bluesky post. Will probably do a rehash of this before the new year :3