This is more a question for me in the title than a question from you. I've been trying to figure out who I am for a long time, and for a while I knew, but it was hard for me to put that sentiment forward. I live in kind of a redneck area, and being a trans person I was scared to say anything. I was scared people would question me immediately and send me back to gaslighting myself to fit the picture I was in.

Only that didn't really work, I fell apart super fast after having, now, done things I don't like (nothing evil, but I've been rude and I feel bad about it). My partner just kinda held onto me though, kept me afloat. Its nice to have that for once, rather than just being used as a cum rag and tossed off to the side.

I've been through a lot the last few months and I get why people make the light support messages now. Shits tiring. You gotta talk shit out with ppl slow and you constantly repeat yourself... But at least my parents aren't jumping on me. At least my sister knows now I wish I was in her place. At least now I've done what I should have done when I was in highschool. At least now I'm owning it. At least now I'm happy.

At least.

But I want you to tell whoever needs it that theres a more to that. Theres no skating by on being happy. You're either happy, or you're miserable. And misery is fickle, don't kid yourself. It may not be loud yet but it will be. If you wait long enough you can have heart palpitations like me!

Don't do that its very scary. Instead, go change your shirt and your undies, try a new name for a bit, see what ya think. Then go farther ahead.

Go do shit its fun I promise.