After "years" of being alone I HOPE TO GOD I'v finally found my Forever, My Mate, My Man!! Everyday has been AMAZING with him, I am his first Mate and He sid "My Forever and Alaways... My Wolfe, My First and only love" My heart sings when he says it... but can those words erase years of neglect? years of being in a pointless relationship that only lead to heart break? I'v found when cuddling, im safe, but yet the nightmares still happen... everynight my Nightmares keep haunting me, keeping me up, keeping a non-existing war alive inside my mind, Like I cant close my eyes for 10 minuets without seeing my new mate leaving, hand in hand with a "BETTER MATE" or just never returning my calls, My love for him is DEEP AND TURE, i'd be lost if not for Him, I wake crying in silence, grasping my stuffy (Stuffed animal) and just crying... For years i'v looked for my TRUE mate, but was olny met with heart break and false hope, Keep Moving Forward! i always said to myself, but DEEP inside I said "Why the hell to I care anymore?" I know my MATE is FOREVER, but still... The nightmares don't stop! in my dreams I see an empty street and my mate in front of me, no smile, a blank face, eaither alone or with another man, pending on the dream, but when he is alone, he says "I'm Sorry..." and turns away, I cry out to him "My Ram, PLEASE DONT LEAVE ME, WHAT DID I DO WRONG" still he walks away, my words ignored, or in the dream where he's not alone, another man is holding my mates hand, tightly, I am speechless! he says nothing, but the other male says "Look, he has made his choice, Now just LEAVE!" and both of them turn and leave, this time I dont speak!

Are the dreams an expression of worry, or a future event to unfold???
Only time shall tell me the answer, there will be other males out there stronger, smarter, and more charming then I, but I TRUST HIM to make his choice to keep his promise!!!

FOREVER AND ALWAYS...?