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I'm a miserable person whose only considerable quality is being an artist, and a very mediocre one. When I finally die, everything I have ever produced will die with me and no one will remember anything, like if I never existed in first place, which is what I wished that was the truth rather than the fact I'm alive but I'm too lazy to kill myself because my first feeling on the morning is disappointment for not having died in my sleep, and starting the day in such a negative mood makes me feel like not doing anything but struggle to breath as my anxiety problems try to make it even more complicated.
Once in a month or something, I feel inspired and then I start to slide the tablet pen across the board and the shit you see in my gallery happens. What I draw has no meaning at all and barely any aesthetical value because that's the only despicable material someone like me could possibly be able to make. However, I keep on doing it because I tend to get butterflies on my stomach as I illustrate my thoughts and feelings into awful scribbles I intend to post on websites like this one.
There's no exaggeration in anything I write. Every single word of mine is a mere use of my freedom of speech here in a place that nobody knows me and I have that fake sense of being free from judgement as well. But as for this one, it's not really a concern to me, as I doubt there's another human being who hates me as much as I already do myself. If there's such person, I doubt it would do me the favour of killing me since even if it would cease my existence, it would be the best gift I could be given and no enemy would like to see me so intensely satisfied.
My days consist of looking for things to distract myself such as books, television shows and music. I need every distraction possible because at the very moment I'm bored, I feel like getting out of my conscience and looking up suicide manners on Google.com because I can't bear with the fact nothing has satisfied me in the past years of my life.

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