I know that headline sounds a lot more dramatic than I'd like it to, but it feels very appropriate. Dealing with the stresses of my retail job, and all of the bullshit that comes with it, has really been dragging me down. I am beyond burnt-out, and am down to my last few nerves. I do not know if the best course of action is to just try and keep with it while looking into finding a psychiatrist/therapist that can throw various anxiety/depression meds at me, or take things into my own hands by quitting this horrid job. I have a few ideas brewing, but much more thought (and first, sleep!) needs to be put into it.

It really is pathetic, how this ONE job, and random people, can cause me so much stress. I know that it's not normal. It's not even considered a full time job. Just a little over 30 hours each week. With roughly 4 or so additional hours spent busing to and from work. By the time I get home, I'm just drained, and the few days I have off work are spent trying to recover, and they never seem like enough time. I haven't had the energy to craft anything in months.

All I know is that *something* has to change. The way things has been going lately is NOT healthy. The thought of doing this kind of job, whether I'm stocking shelves or running a cash register, for the rest of my life depresses me more than I can possibly put into words. There has got to be something better than this. Perhaps I should start putting my skills to use...