Hi,

It's been a while since I've been here, or in the merfolk community in general. A lot has happened in the past. I enjoyed making art and interacting with others in the community. I made mistakes, and did things I regretted - but I also let my anxiety and self deprecation vastly overestimate how bad things were. I left the community for a long time - it's been at least a year, year and a half now? Maybe more. I had plenty of time to reflect.

Importantly, I really needed professional help, and now I've been getting it. It feels great, and generally have found that my extreme anxiety was causing my serious issues where I lacked control. I'm sorry to people that I made uncomfortable, and I feel strongly that I'm improving a lot, and I want to continue to do better. Part of that is making this side of me something I'm not afraid of anymore. I like merfolk, I think they're cool. I think mermaids are cute. I want to keep that in a healthy controlled place where I'm not embarrassed but acting responsibly.

So we'll see how this goes. Perhaps I'll be more active in making art again, or I'll feel like I've grown satisfied with this and can lay it to rest, either way, I'll probably be around more. Have a good day. : )