I'm doing alright and still around. But I will admit. I've been through times where I feel like I'm alright and on top of the world to feeling kind of down and depressed. It's been kind of back and forth there.

Not a lot has been going on lately. I think everyone goes through a period of their life where they're bored or in a rut where nothing thrills nor excites anyone anymore. I'll be honest that the only thing on my mind that's been somewhat keeping my mind off the depression, depressive thoughts or anything like that to keep my spirits up. It's been watching anything that's funny. Such as the following:

Watching Nostalgia Critic videos, watching some cartoons like the revival to Phineas and Ferb, Big City Greens, I gave Monsters At Work a look and it holds up, Hamster & Gretel ( you can't say that shows name without laughing ) yet I think that show got cancelled but there's no information saying it is or not, I think that show entered a slowdown, other shows I've watched that lifted my spirits such as Kiff, that one seems to be doing really well, Hailey's On It! was one but ever since that show got cancelled and left on a cliffhanger ending on the first season, it's like what is Disney doing. Seemed like when the live action remake to Snow White bombed, they cancelled other shows. Disney, obviously you're not knowing what you're doing. Other shows I watched that sadly got cancelled was StuGo and Primos, those two looked like they had potential but Disney seems to be going mental on what choices and decisions they make.

So the shows that are currently still going seem to be helping with lifting my spirits but I still have days where I'm feeling on top of the world and feeling down but kind of going back and forth. Sometimes I'm watching Bluey, yes, I get the show is for a younger audience but the show is appealing to all ages for some reason and I like this one.

Found out my older sister got approved for a new apartment she'll move into but the problem with that is she's stuck trying to find someone or more that's strong and healthy, ready, willing and able to help her move her stuff into the apartment because when it comes to moving. You often need help with that but it seems like when you have friends and you immediately say you need help with something like that. They all run for the hills till the problem blows over. But that's the thing. That never blows over unless some people are able to help. Me and my family, no matter which side of the family it is, sometimes feels like we're cursed with bad luck.

My older sister may have to pay some services to help her move but the problem is the following: For one, some services charge too much money and that's often money no one has to give because they don't have it. And sometimes people can't afford to pay some greedy service that's too thirsty for that money that one doesn't have to give. I wish I could say my older sister could use the money from the income tax refund but something tells me my mom's words mean that she didn't get paid as much as one should. I don't know if the income tax refund thing means some people, depending on their jobs, that some get paid more than others in those terms, but if it's true. Then that's bullshit, they should pay everyone the same amount. That, and I blame a lot of the inflation that's made everything with a price tag unable to be affordable. Damn you, Joe Biden, we all know he should've never been president. Even though his term is over.

My older sister is still looking for a cheaper and more affordable moving service or possibly looking for anyone who could do it for free because nowadays. It seems like the only way to make that happen is to find people who are willing to help and do it for free because not everyone has money and for the people who don't have it. Money is important and is a problem. So it sometimes feels like the family on both sides are cursed with bad luck and someone is always taking advantage of it just to make a quick rich dollar off it.

Then they wonder why so many people are looking up at the sky and saying to God why he lets the wealthy, powerful, corrupt and wicked have everything, get blessed with endless miracles and blessings that never stop when those people use what they got for evil and why the good, the poor, the needy and the innocent always have to suffer, struggle and never know what happiness is, what it looks like, feels like or what it even tastes like if you were tasting the world's most delicious food. They wonder why we are asking God all of that and why he doesn't get up off his throne and lift a finger to help us or anyone that needs it. It's like when you have a one-year time of a deadline to get whatever it is you need before you end up in a bad situation that sucks. He only makes the miracle happen when that one year's time deadline is five seconds away from reaching zero, making you feel like you're going to lose everything, die on the floor and be stressed out worrying and then boom, he finally gives that miracle we've been killing ourselves over to get. I know me and my mom are not going through that and all and it's my older sister, but, even when someone in your family is going through something like that. It makes one feel like God favors someone evil over someone good.

I'd rather have God let me and members of my family and those we love experience the life we should've gotten to live where we have the strong and healthy body and physical health, be wealthy with endless blessings and miracles coming to us, always have people helping us out when we need it and be able to afford anything. I'd rather have that for both me, my mom, members of my family and others I know and love. I'd rather us all have that now from now till the day we pass on because we'd at least be happy and can enjoy life. I'd rather us and others have that instead of waiting till we die and go to Heaven to experience that because that's not how we want it.

Sorry if this feels like a rant about how God's way isn't fast and sooner enough and I know I'm ranting about how even if me and my mom aren't going through anything but someone or more in the family is. It feels like someone up there is responsible for our suffering and pain whenever anyone goes through that. I believe God exists and all but if he wants anyone in the family to have our hope, faith, trust and belief in him restored. He will help my older sister with what she needs and he'd make sure it's as fast and soon as possible.

So forgive me if this sounds like me blowing up at God a little bit for what my older sister is going through but even that can make one feel like someone up there isn't doing their job the way that we want it to be done.

So for now, my mom and I are okay, but my older sister, she's still looking for someone to help her with moving. If you're wondering why family can't do much. Well, my grandparents that are the parents to my dad, they're too old to be doing anything with heavy lifting since they're both entering their nineties, my dad, yeah, that psychotic madman is not having many people like him right now after a life time of all the rotten things he's done, so my older sister isn't a fan of them right now. My uncle has passed on so he's unable to help because I'm pretty sure you can't bring the dead back to life, my uncle's associate, he's been forced to move in with his dad and his dad is, well, let's just say his dad is someone I don't know much about but he's not sounding ideal. As for any of my older sister's friends, I got no idea what to say about them because I don't hear from my older sister all that much but she seems to talk to my mom here and there, my mom, well, she's not able to help my older sister physically since her physical health is not like it used to be. My mom having arthritis and COPD is the issue. I don't know if we can afford to send her money to help with her moving or to pay for a moving service.

So far, that's what all is currently going on. I know we're all okay right now but my older sister is still trying to find someone to help her with moving her belongings into her new apartment. So pray for my older sister.

Also, just so you know. Keep getting a look at these links below.

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10270388

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10568673/

The links will keep you alerted about a troll I had reported about that's been causing problems for me and others from other websites. I doubt the person has an account on here because the problem didn't happen on here. It happened on a different website. So just letting you know in case you encounter the said troll and if you do, report the troll.