Over the past month alot has gone on. I know that things happen for a reason. Though I don't understand most of why it happends. I'll start from the begenning.


I was talking to this guy, "Brent". We had been talking for a month or so. I decited to drive to the other side of the cities and meet him and hang out. Well we ended up hitting it off in person. We got druk and sat at the Lock and damn. We ended up messing around there and ended up back at my place fucking. In the mist of this he fold me that he was asked out by a guy from another state. My whole point of going to meet him in person was to ask him out. It really fucked me up. He knew that I liked him and that we was going to meet and see if we really clicked. The next day he told me the only reason that he said yes to this other guy was because he thought that I wasn't going to show up. This other guy came own from where ever his from and I ended up meeting him too. Brent and this guy brok p and Brent an i started kind of seeing each other, If thats what you want to call it. We fight constantly like no other. If its not one thing with him its somethign else. He is constantly tearing me down with him and making me feel like shit, if i make a mistake i catch hell for it from him. It's like its that end of the world. He tells me he doesnt want to talkto me any more and that he doesnt want to see me. Then the next day he acts like nothign ever happend. I dont know what to do. His fits make me want him even more and I dont know why. We have done alot together and have gone through alot together. Not all of it is good. But I really liek him and he knows it. I fell like hes toying with my heart and this is all a game to him. I want to just stop talking to him and everything, but my feeling for him keeps me still talking and going along with his games. I have never been happyer when he is laying in my arms at night. It's a feeling that i can't explain. I am at a loss of what to do. he know how I feel so telling him doesn't and wont do any good.