I have an update to announce regarding my drawings.

First, I must sincerely apologize for barely doing any drawings this month. On top of that, I had multiple episodes of mental breakdown due to depression...

What happened to me?
I've made a lot of mistakes throughout my life. That's affected my friends too, making them fed up with me. I don't blame them; it's just that depression always plays tricks on me.
The only bad thing is that I haven't been able to improve myself all these years... I always end up the same, hurting everyone, bothering everyone, misunderstanding everyone, until they get fed up with me...
I'll never be able to overcome my depression...

Are you giving up?
Absolutely...
I just can't get any better... I feel like a coward...

"But you should call for help. That's the only way out!"
Yes, although my parents won't let me use the phone. I know I have a smartphone, but I don't have a SIM card with a number to call that help center.
I have cousins, but I'm afraid they won't help me either. They're really busy with their own lives. Maybe they're having a better life than I am...

Why are you so depressed? How did this happen in your life?
That will have to wait for another time.
It's a long story...

The effects of my depression on my drawings (The real update)
There are a few things I want to announce to you.

Plans cancelled
Since this is happening to me right now, I've decided to get rid of what I was planning...
I had to cancel my fursona redesign. I had some changes I wanted to make, but I just didn't feel like doing anything anymore. It's probably better to leave it as is, though, since some artists are using this design.
Another plan is to create an account for explicit content (i.e., NSFW drawings). But only exclusively on e621 site. Obviously, it's a plan to make explicit drawings, but I'm also going to create an explicit version of my fursona. Although I don't think I can do that, since I have a feeling my family might be watching me, I'm also going to need another sketchbook to hide it in.
Finally, I want to learn how to draw humans. But I've lost a very special friend because of me...

Plans delayed
I don't feel like drawing for the rest of the month, nor in May...
Kasumi, Aria and a new Pokémon that I plan to give a biography to will be delayed until June.
And also a fun fanart for my special friend, although I don't know if I should cancel that... I just still feel sad about everything...

That's everything I have...
I have so much to tell you about why I feel devastated... I'm simply an incurable person...

I'll tell you another time. I'll see you in June...

- Román Armando 2026