They say...

"Why don't you look around to see the people that care and love you?"

I say...
"I do see them but they do not truley see me."

They say...
"Why do you always push those who love you away?"

I say...
"For their own good"

They say...
"You'll never find anyone tha cares for you if you keep pushing them away like that!"

I say...
"So be it."

They say...
"You're just a fucking coward that won't let anyone into his heart...all you do is fake your emotions and toy with people."

I say nothing..I sit and I listen.

They say...
"You are nothing but an empty shell incapable of caring for another human being."

I say nothing still.

They say...
"C'mon answer if you aren't such a gutless coward."

I punch one of them.

They fall.

They say...
"Why can't you open your eyes to what is in front of you."

"I start to walk away from them."

They beg and scream...

"WHY?!"

I stop and turn to answer...
"Because I closed my eyes long ago to protect what is and now was in front of me."

I walked out the door into the "lighted" world with my eyes closed saying.

"I have got to stop caring about others."

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Well...that was a bit of a ranty journal wasn't it.
For those of you wondering where I have been or how I have been feeling or acting this would a good indication of my mood. (and that mood is no mood at all)

So...what comes next...i personally don't and don't even care anymore.

Whatever happens..happens i dont care anymore sorry.