I am just here to say that if you have stuck with me for the past two years then...
THANK YOU!!
It means a whole lot.
I know I am not someone awesome on here.
I can't really draw.
And my editing sucks compared to most.
But I am mostly here for friends.
For the past two years I have been battling depression.
Someone I knew and loved betrayed me.
I tried my hardest to get better.
And thought coming here would help.
And it did for the most part but..
I was still depressed.
So I stopped showing up.
I tried coming back.
But I just couldn't.
I got a little better.
And got the strength I need to come back.
But in November of last year something awful happened.
My grandmother was put in the hospital.
She had fallen down the stairs breaking her neck and some ribs.
She wasn't in the hospital long before they fucked her up and she became a vegetable.
She was in a hospital bed for 8 months.
She could no longer walk since she lost the strength in her legs to stand.
She barely talked.
She barely even opened her eyes.
In May of this year she was starting to get a little better.
She was starting to talk.
I had not heard her talk in 7 months and was so happy she was getting better.
But not even two week after I had moved in June she decided she didn't want to live anymore.
She was blind, very weak and had to go through dialysis.
So on June 13th they stopped her dialysis and on the 16th she was put in a hospice center.
She lived until June 22, at 7:35 pm.
I was there to witness the whole thing.
Til this day I still remember it all.
That's when depression hit me again.
I try to play it off like I am fine.
But at night while I try to sleep I have flash backs of the day she passed.
It has been very hard on me.
I spent my first 4th of July, her birthday and Halloween with out her.
And there are many things that are celebrated in the future that I will have to do without her.
I am so glad I have wonderful people here and in Rl by my side.
But a shout out needs to go to shadowwolf93.
He has messaged me off and on for the past two years.
Worried about where I have been and if I have left for good.
Thank you.
And don't worry I won't leave.
I want to start getting on more and get back into things.
But first I need to think of myself.
So I may be off and on here.
Just bare with me a little longer.
I love you guys!


-Chloe