Well when ever I trust someone fully and relax .... I get hurt he hurt me so much being the damn stubborn ass hipocrite he is. Now whenever I see him I start to cry because all the things he promised me and told me are still tearing my heart to shreds he begged me to trust him, to open up to him, to let him heal me, when I did... I don't know what happened he just tore me back down and I feel like he just lied to me all the "I love you's" and. The "Im sure there probably is someone better but I don't want better I want you that won't ever change" they were lies. Complete utter lies I was always scared is goto fast or not fast enough every choice I made the last few days I regretted, I feel so worthless cause they figured since one guy did it they can do it too so now I'm like a little big on the side walk like I was before I met him everyone steps all over me and it won't ever stop cause in too weak and lost everything that ment my heart to me and so now I'm just trying to let out the pain while I sit in the rain with my razor