I have the art, in my head, but it's been so many years since I consistently worked on getting it down, putting it on paper, pulling it out of my head... that it's become really quite hard to do.
Add to that the simple fact that I struggle with disabilities, both physical (let's just simplify it into a slowly worsening chronic pain and fatigue problem) and mental (chronic depression, anxiety disorders and ADD)... and it's become very hard to pick up the pencil.

And then there's... well... stress...

You can stop reading here if you don't need the depressing whining...

Money's been suuuuper tight lately.
I am skipping meals to make sure that there's enough food for my daughter, and I know that's not a viable solution.
The crochet I post is, well, if I'm going to be totally honest, a desperate attempt to make a little bit of extra money so that I can eat.
I am even running out of coffee, the one thing I had to keep myself going.

Obviously, as a result of this, my body is getting worse.
My conditions have been going untreated for a while now, but at least I had the semblance of "food" to keep it from failing more aggressively.

I genuinely want to be art-ing more, and I found some art supplies in a box, so I "might" be posting some art sometime in the next... year.... but don't hold your breath.
More likely, it's gonna be more crochet.

And maybe this link... on occasion... because I'm actually starting to worry about my weight... enough so that I don't really care enough to separate this side of myself from others any more.