You know those times when your not sure what to do or how to feel. Hell even the times when you don't even really know who you are anymore. We all have times like those, some more often than others. Hardest part of it all is learning how to cope. No you can't be happy all the time, but the same goes for being sad. Nothing lasts forever this we all know. We just wonder why it always feels like the bad in life always outweighs the good. I'm not pessimistic and I am not optimistic. I'm just me I take the days as they come no matter how crappy or happy I feel. Like you can't control the weather you also can't control the way your mind works. For those that know me well enough know what I mean. I'm afraid that I have hurt one of my closest friends today and it is eating at me like crazy. I don't know myself at all right now. I just hope my friendship can be saved. If you are reading this my dear friend I am truely sorry and know I am going nowhere that I can promise you.