Viewers, please don’t hate me for this, but I have something very important to say.

I’ve been very foolish in mid-2024. I made the mistake of making a false move that led to one of my favorite users blocking me. The user in question is MermaidNerin. I tried to negotiate unblocking me with her on DeviantArt, but I disguised myself as a separate person, as I was afraid she would block me there, too, if I talked to her as myself. Not a good plan. She did unblock me for a while, but every time I tried to talk to her to try and make amends, I never got an answer, even after trying to gift her with my chess artwork.

Things completely splintered when I tried to ask her what was going on via a DeviantArt message. Her reply was clear and bitter:
“Usually, don't reply to any comments I get, not just you. I didn't even see the journal because I'm not following you. I didn't like how you traced my art or somehow copied it and gave an excuse as to why you did it. I didn't like how when I had you blocked, you messaged me on DA and pretended to be someone else to get my attention. I didn't like when you told me you had gift art to post but only would if I unblocked you. I didn't like how you copied my mermaid characters tail, just changing the colors. Im not your friend. I don't like how you're trying to push a friendship on me.”

After that, she blocked me again, this time, seemingly permanently, and on both accounts. My lazy way of tracing over her artworks when I made Néphie was not just because of my autism and ADHD - I was inexperienced in digital art. And that has sadly proven to be my downfall. I’ve made a complete and utter fool of myself.

I’ve deleted a large amount of my artworks here on FA, and I’ve only kept the oldest version of Néphie, and her current redesign, along with my gift, Nadine, Néphie’s lament, Néphie’s human form, the “Sérénité” works, and some miscellaneous. I’m going to rewrite the vast majority of Néphie’s bio, and I’ll also hopefully redesign her mother and sisters in the future.

I really want to make things right with Nerin so that we can be back on friendly terms like we were when I first created Néphie, and before the first incident. But at this point, I’m not sure how or if I can do that. I really don’t want to make the same mistake again. I never meant to offend her, but I took things too quickly and only made it worse. I’m sorry for being so dishonest, and I speak these words in a solemn tone.

Sincerely, Anon4903.