Hey, I am Sprinkles. I wanted to right thing to show some transparency and explain some things. Mainly the reason why I do art and what I want to do with my art moving forward if I can kick myself into gear and do it.



Current Life



Currently, I work a job less than 30 hours a week and were I nearly have daily anxiety episodes due to people's stupidity. I am surrounded by intelligence and wealth, yet, reminded of my failures in life everyday cause of it. I do have an Associates Degree in Animation and Game Design but have not used it for anything, unless you count drawing tits on things. This is mostly cause society really no longer accepts an Associates as enough qualifications to at least land an entry level position at a studio, big or small. That being said, I have tried to apply myself multiple times at places, such as indie game studios like Beat Banger, or YouTube channels like Psych2Go, just to get some professional animation and studio experience that I can later use to apply for bigger positions. The reality of it is, I have no demo real. Since graduating in 2020 from the community college that I got my degree at, I have barely animated anything. This is cause of one thing. Time. It takes time to animate, lots of time, and even more time to make is really good. I would worry that I would lose traction if I don't post consistently, but I don't post consistently anyways cause of my day job and also cause... I became a VR Chat in late 2023. So basically, time isn't on my side and it really doesn't help that I am quickly approaching 30, within 6 months to be exact. Do I feel like I wasted my time just drawing porn and giving people virtual lap dances? Not really. I love drawing boobs and I love entertaining people. The issue is that I thought that doing art for a decade that I would have the following to justify doing this full-time... But I haven't, not even close. But that's ok. I learned that I don't need over 100k followers on twitter and an X number of money per month to be validated. I just don't really care that much about that anymore. Weather I am drawing my turtle, Becky, and her huge breasts, or drawing my sona JuJu and his girl Mercy together, or a Riolu getting laid, I have fun. I just wish I had more time. The lack of time, sent me into a depression recently, one that made me question my life choices. What am I doing? Why am I doing this? Where am I going? While I stopped caring so much about numbers and metrics, I care about how I see my art as a whole. I want to do more. A lot more. I want to work and be a professional. But that takes... time, something I almost am running out of. I have no demo real, barely anything on my portfolio, and have no leverage to actually get into the industry. I am tired of being a bottom feeder when I had the drive to be more. So, after some thought. I wanted to share my plan. This is no particular order, just things I really need to do.



Plans for the Future



1. Find a new job where I don't work 5 days a week. My current job does not pay well and I work too many days, it doesn't add up and makes no sense to me. So something new would help a lot for my mental.

2. Focus more on refining my skills as an artist. While I like the way I draw, I need to do better. I feel like its a leap of faith to do what I want, maybe it is, but it is something that I need to convince myself to do. To learn what others have and what a professional portfolio looks like, and to make my own, I HAVE to do that. I don't want to be a min-wage worker in their 30's. I have worked too hard, I have had too many setbacks and made too many mistakes. I want to help people and give back.

3. Possibly take a hiatus from dancing. While I enjoy and it's a good workout, it does take away from my art. This isn't an easy thing since I am more involved in the scene, but I make the chose when I come to that fork.

4. Gym Membership. I feel like lifting weights and doing more intense workouts would help my mood a little more. I also wanna be a little more buff.

5. Apply myself more. Regardless of what I have right now, I still want to put my name out there and see who bites. I want to do this professionally.


Overall. This is my plan, and I start this today. So if it seems that I'm not working on anything, I am. It is just to build my future, before it's too late for me.



Thank you for reading and understanding.



With much love, Sprinkles.