I got a BluSky!


I hated twitter before manchild took over so I am not updating that anymore, if you want to see some WIPs and the occasional femboy outfit check out my Bluesky.


https://bsky.app/profile/macromolly.bsky.social

Its been a long time since I did a journal, So I thought doing one would be ok.

Been really struggling with my self esteem over my work, I feel like what I have done and my level of ability doesn't justify how long I have been trying.

Over the past year I have seen a huge drop in interest in my work and even just engagement from people who now don't talk to me.

I have a few large images I want to complete, I won't start any new projects if there is no interest in my pictures,

So depending on if the next pieces get an average response, and not worse reception than amateur drawings I did, I will decide if its worth continuing or not as my self esteem can only take so many blows.

Just wanted to let everyone know that's where I am at with trying.

Seeing as it has been a long time since I posted a journal I thought I would let you the reason behind the slow content, basically last year i got a new wacom tablet, and around the same time i lost all drive and inspiration to draw, i took a month or two off and got some motivation back, since then i have tried out some new techniques and brushes and styles and that is why it took a lot longer to put this pic out, i have forced myself to start sketching more and hopefully i will have the confidence to upload some sketches in between my big pics.

The time it takes me to fill out large city landscapes and colour it all is the main cause for the length of time it takes me to get a picture out but i really am trying to get better and faster at filling out the backgrounds i have found a few techniques to help speed my pictures up so hopefully over the next few months i will have improved up my output.

Thank you to everyone who continues to support me, every watch and nice comment and favorite really means a great deal to me and to my confidence levels so i can't thank you enough for your support.

Hey just wanted to give an update as its been a while since i have posted a journal i try to keep them to a minimum.

Currently I take a while drawing because i put a lot of effort into my pictures and it takes me some time to finish them but i am working on getting quicker at finishing them so expect to see more.

Been a bit preoccupied with stuff the last few months as i have just moved in with my big boyfriend  macroricky so now i have somewhat of a desk space to draw at.

Seeing as a lot of the pics i do take a while and they don't seem to really pick up I'm going to try out some different styles and sketch a lot more, I'm going to try hard to get a lot more speedy at the rate i finish large pictures and post more WIPS and sketches to twitter and in my scraps.

I feel in some limited ways i have improved but being honest i haven't got to a place where i feel like i have justifiably accomplished anything over the time i have been on here and my work reflects this.

I currently have a few commissions from other artists to post and some that are currently being done. At the moment i almost have a partial fursuit completed bar a tail though i want to wait until i have a full suit before i start making and editing macro rampage videos.

I really do want to continue and improve and become mediocre at least,and id love to hear some feedback on what doesn't work or looks bad so feel free to send me a note or add me on discord.

Thanks again sticking around and supporting me it really does make a difference in my life and for my confidence.

Hi

Apologies for the lack of stuff as of late.

Just wanted to make a post to discuss some things that have happened to me in the last few months. In October i managed to get a commission slot with an artist i used to hold in high regard and since the purchase of the slot, i have had a bad experience from them and basically had been ignored and pushed aside with no intention of my commission being complete whilst they took on a new batch of slots after completing the rest of the commissions apart from my own all the while ignoring messages and lying when they did respond. So i decided to refund and now have been blocked and told ill be reported by them, the whole experience has upset me.

In regards to artwork i managed to get 75% of the way through my next pic then my hard drive failed on my laptop causing Photoshop and my tablet to not work well enough to use(image is backed up) and so i decided to continue work on my fursuit which the head is almost complete and i will be posting some pics in a a week or two.

In regards to my negative experience you can read my experience here: https://macromolly.livejournal.com/363.html.

Thanks to all the people who have always been nice to me and given me kind support.

Hey,

Just wanted to thank everyone for all the support faves and watches c: it means a lot to me, also wanted to give an update as i haven't done a journal in a while. On the way is more digital drawings, i'm concentrating on tablet pen drawing to improve my lines, most of the major bits are done and im more used to digital drawing and tablets so shouldn't take as long as the last!

Also In the works is a commission from Inu-Jean so expect to see some more giant destructive curves! If anyone has any improvement ideas or critiques on how i draw or interact or anything please let me know, i have a feeling i'm doing something wrong. Thanks c: x

Sorry for doing a journal, recently i have lost a few watchers from my handful so i just thought id say i haven't given up just yet i'm just taking ages to post my next pic as i'm learning how to use a pen and draw digitally so it is taking me a while i
('m almost done with most of the line drawing).

And foolishly at the same time i'm trying to make a fursuit,(might post progress pics) aaand also in the works is a commission from one of my favorite artists so that will also be posted as soon as i receive the final image.

Sorry for spamming your notifications with a journal.

Thanks for all the wonderful support so far without it i would have stopped c: