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Posted 10 years agohttp://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6437690/
I feel terribly sorry that I can't help fund for this person, but if you can, please help.
I feel terribly sorry that I can't help fund for this person, but if you can, please help.
Where to from here?
Posted 10 years agoLadies! Gentlemen! Fello hermaphrodites, too. -winks-
Since the fecent family member loss, there has been a change in plans. You see, my Grandmother cannot really survive on her own with her husband gone. She needs a lot of help and a lot of care, and so because she needs help with finances, household chores, and a lot, lot more, we will not be moving into a house of our own. Nope! No apartments, no smelly, worn-down rooms with low structural integrity, no upfront fee of $600 for two pets. Not at this point. I mean, it's only the morally right thing to do. We can't send her to a group or retirement home, we can't put her out on the streets, and by jove I will not allow for her to die alone, and that is why we are "making it work."
I had a bad relationship with Granddad, yes, but my Grandmother is a different story. I was under the inpression that she was just as bad as her husband, but it turns out that her husband was stressing her out so badly that I never got the chance to see her real self. I mean, the both of them drove each other nuts, I'm surprised they lasted for 47 years, but something beautiful is coming from such a tragic and dark end. Yes, we're all upset. My Mom's birthday was today, and she spent it sitting around the house doing nothing. All she got to do was eat McDonald's for breakfast and sit around for the rest of the day without her husband. That's really depressing, even for me to know that, and as hard as it is, I'm condident that this will eventually blossom into something more beautiful. The blooming flower from obsidian, if you will. So, my activity on this website, artistically, may or may not increase. That all depends on whether or not we'll be keeping my Grandfather's computer in my room. If such is the case, then I might just be the happiest shape changing lizard in the world! Happiness coming from death...seems dark, but if you think about it, it's not as bad as it sounds.
I'm tired. Bah. Goodnight.Doctor Fur? (Input needed!)
Posted 10 years agoMaybe it's just wishful thinking, but the more and more I comment on certain images, I feel as if I'm turning into a strange, Doctor-like character. I do mean the fabled time lord, of course, and I feel as if I've gained a strange eccentricity, an experienced person with extensice knowledge about the pictures I comment on.
That's made me think: What would it be like if Dustin Bach was actually an eccentric traveler just like the time lord?
I mean, Dustin is already a traveler who goes across the world and to other worlds as well, but what if he was more eccentric? Not really flirtacious but more...energetic, like the Doctor kind of energetic, hopping around, being all scientific, like, "Allons-y!"
What if Dustin's character was more like that?
Maybe I can write a short story showcasing this type of personality to give you guys a better idea of it, but what do you guys think?Sexual Arousal from Children's Movies
Posted 10 years agoAlright, first and foremost, before I further establish that I'm a total horndog for a specific character in a children's film, I'd like to say thank you to everybody who took a moment to give their condolances to me and my family in the wake of our latest disaster. We all have been handling it better than we expected, and we're planning on making it work with what we have, but I cannot speak for the family until our decision is truly final. We've discussed it before, we discussed it today, and eventually we will come to the conclusion on whether or not we will be staying with Granny or moving out into that destined apartment complex. My Mother seems rather keen on the idea, but we still have to talk things through, do the math, calculate things, and basically just figure it out.
With all that said, I shall take things from solemn to unnaturally erotic.
Gloria the Hippo: I've talked about her before, and I feel the need to tell more about my fantasies of her once again. I'd like to say that Gloria has contributed a lot to my fat fetish that I express today with my furry friends and whatnot. Who could disagree? Plump, teasing, bubbly, and with the release of Madagascar 2, one of the hottest anthro African animal ever. Seriously, Escape 2 Africa glorified the already hot-as-the-sun Gloria, and with the help of a sonf that I've shared in journals before and music videos showcasing that rear of hers, I just want to say...
DAAAAAYUUUUUUUM!
Who agrees with me? -blushes-It's Over…
Posted 10 years agoHe's gone.
Ten, twenty minutes ago, we got a call.
My Grandfather's suicide attempt was successful.
I don't know how to feel, really.
I hate grief so much. Feels like having to go through a really shitty puberty in one day's time.
So, yeah…really shitty way to end a Tuesday.
...and now the Longest 2 Weeks in my life begins.
Ten, twenty minutes ago, we got a call.
My Grandfather's suicide attempt was successful.
I don't know how to feel, really.
I hate grief so much. Feels like having to go through a really shitty puberty in one day's time.
So, yeah…really shitty way to end a Tuesday.
...and now the Longest 2 Weeks in my life begins.
I never wanted it to end like this...
Posted 10 years agoMy Grandfather tried to commit suicide yesterday. He's in critical condition and no one knows what will happen to him, but it's looking very grim right now.
I'm so mad at him for doing this. Only a coward would commit suicide instead of facing himself and standing up to make things right. Then again, he's been sick for a long time, so I guess I shouldn't blame him.
I just hate everything right now. I don't want to do anything right now. I just want to relax and watch more Netflix.
Just...fuck everything.
I'm so mad at him for doing this. Only a coward would commit suicide instead of facing himself and standing up to make things right. Then again, he's been sick for a long time, so I guess I shouldn't blame him.
I just hate everything right now. I don't want to do anything right now. I just want to relax and watch more Netflix.
Just...fuck everything.
Ether Eel: Some Statistical stuff.
Posted 10 years agoMy latest project, "Ether Eel," seemed to have been rather well-taken! I know a certain somebody who really liked it, and I just wanna smooch him so badly for it. But anyways, I digress. I'd like to present a few factoids about the project and why I felt it was a breath of fresh air for me.
• The only inspiration that I took from anything was the second half, where I used the "Kindergarten Bass" in the higher octaves. It was at that point that I was going for a Marilyn Manson "Resident Evil" type of sound, but I didn't actually follow a melody or a pattern, so I guess it was more original than I thought it would be.
• All the synthesizers used in the project were in an odd key. Even the monotonous synth in the background was in Minor key The other synths used, including the "Chill Pad" were in the Dorian key, and the aforementioned Kindergarten Bass was in a Harmonic Minor key. That is the first time in any song where I didn't use a standard key.
• The baxkground drums in the second half of the song were the default "Hip Hop Drum Machine" sound, but I lowered the resolution slightly, and I turned the "lo-fi" effect up to almost half way. Everything else about it was kept, and I was contemplating cutting off the low tones just a tad, but that took away the kick from the drums. Plus the lo-fi effect already distorted the kick drum to begin with.
• 
zidders shared a link to my song in his own journal and made my morning for me. How I love that purple-haired roo~
• You can also find this song posted on my YouTube channel. Just look up Ether Eel, and you'll find it there.
• This is my first project on Garageband since April last year! Holy crap!
• The master reverb used in the song was set to "Moon Dome" for added ambience. I have never used that in any song beforehand.
That's all I can think of at the moment.
ziddersI'm not tight about anything!
Posted 10 years agoI just realized I said "I was tight about one thing" instead of "I was right about one thing." Whoopsies! So, I'm not tight about anything. Especially not after tonight's Mexican dinner. (TMI Thursday night?)
So, I've found that I'm finding crafting really interesting. Not just Mine Crafting either! I like crafting wooden furniture and other tangible objects with some every day practical uses to them. Tomorrow I'm really excited about bringing my stool home and sitting on it in the garage whilst I watch some YouTube videos. I've had more ideas since then, including a TV stand and a DVD/Video Game shelf, maybe even some other pieces of furniture like a coffee table or something. Who knows? All I know is that I find the art interesting.
Now, all I need to do is translate this into furries somehow…Well, I was tight about one thing...
Posted 10 years agoMy activity on this site was going to decrease, even though I didn't do much beforehand anyway. I haven't even posted a journal in three days!
Well, I guess I should give you guys an update on artistic progress, since I am actually doing something artsy in my school. I'm currently working on a wooden stool that I built with the help of my teacher, and I will be bringing it home this Friday. Until then, I'm about to upload some of the WIP images. One of them will show when I first constructed it, the second part will be the part after I stained it, and after I gloss it today, I'll upload an image of the final product tomorrow. It's looking brilliant so far, and I must say I am proud of it, so I hope you guys like it as much as I do.
Also, jesus H. I really hate this school. I'm surrounded by idiots. My classmates are really douchey, and the only exceptions to this are my friends, those I actually respect and like. Everyone else just should go fuck off. The school itself isn't even half decent. Instead of a real prom, we're having a "Valentine's Day dance," as if we're too special to have a prom like a regular high school. This is why I hate charter schools or alternate education centers. They make me feel as if I belong with these juvenile delinquents...
Eh, I've ranted enough this morning.Activity Decrease Inbound
Posted 10 years agoIf it seems like I'm not faving pictures as often as I used to, it's because my iPhone makes for terrible web browsing, especially on FurAffinity. Also, my submissions inbox gets full really fast, 100 submissions in less than 24 hours. Still better than waking up.to 500 submissions in my inbox.
Also, for fuck's sake, school makes me tired. I'm either having too much fun or concentrating too hard. Ah, school expends a lot of energy anyways, so eh…
Bedtime for this little lizard. Past bedtime, actually, just wanna snooooooooooooooze…TMI Quiz! (From Mook and Zidders)
Posted 10 years agoGot this from Mook and Zidders.
1. How did you get your name? Your real name, not your fursona' name.
Dustin Hoffman. Enough said.
2. What is your earliest memory?
My Mom picking me up from day care.
3. Is there anything you were very afraid of as a small child that doesn't scare you anymore?
I used to have this strange fear of the THX logo screen. Every time I heard that tune, I imagined an engine powering up and electrifying the floor. I had some weird sticking nightmares as a kid. Seriously.
4. What is your worst childhood memory?
Getting my hair caught in fly paper.
5. What is your happiest childhood memory?
I'm having a brain fart. Rose! Get me the gas-x!
6. What were you/are you good at in school?
Math.
7. What were you/are you bad at in school?
Spanish.
8. Did you ever get in trouble for anything in school?
Other than fighting, destroying classrooms, screaming and crying, pooping on the floor, and not paying attention in class and talking to other students? Not a whole lot.
9. Did you ever cheat in school?
No, but I did forget to pay attention a lot of the time.
10. Did fire drills startle the bejabahousendadun out of you in school, or was that just me?
I hated fire drills. I had to hold my ears because it hurt my ear holes.
11. What was your first car, motorcycle, or scooter?
A really cheap scooter from Toys R Us.
12. What was your first romantic kiss like?
Awkward. I laughed in her mouth.
13. Ever experiment with alcohol or sex before you were 'supposed to'?
Of course!
14. What was your first job?
Does an allowance count?
15. Were you ever bullied?
I was picked on (let's just say) for being such a raging bu.
16. What's your current living arrangement?
I've ranted about it enough before.
17. What car, motorcycle, or scooter do you drive now?
I drive people crazy. Does that count?
18. Do you like where you live?
Absolutely not! I wanna move back up north!
19. What's the hardest part about living where you do?
GOD DAMN SPANISH IS HARD TO LEARN.
20. Do you keep a clean house or a messy one?
I personally prefer to call my home, "Fucked up." XD
21. Favorite soda/pop/soft drink?
Root Beer, preferably Barq's.
22. Favorite alcoholic beverage?
Spiced Eggnog.
23. Favorite snack?
Bugles. Those are pretty much as addicting as cocaine.
24. Favorite coffee, tea, or specialty drink?
Cappuccino with milk and sugar. Mmmmm~
25. Favorite way to show someone you care about them?
Create something with or for them. (Agreeing with Zids.)
26. What do you regret?
Hurting others, ruining friendships, everything I've done in my past to hurt others.
25. What can you be proud of?
Being a good person, having good charm, and making everyone happy.
26. Is there someone who means a lot to you you've never told so?
No. Not ever, I always let someone know that they're worthwhile.
27.
28.
29.
30.
Those four were annoying variations of #26 (If you say so, Zids.)
31. What's the worst thing you can say to somebody?
Fuck your cunt you dumb whore. (Sorry for the vulgarity, just saying what the worst statement is.)
32. What's the best thing you can do say somebody?
I adore you for who you are, and that's a fact.
33. What's the worst thing you can do to somebody?
Not acknowledge they exist. (Agreeing with Zids)
34. What's the best thing you can do to someone?
Let them know that they matter. (Agreeing with Zids)
35. Are you going to be more of the best after this?
I'm going to keep trying. (Agreeing with Zids)
36. What sort of life do you want to live?
A life of inner peace.
37. Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
Yes.
38. What do you think really happens when you die?
I won't know till I get there and I'm not in a hurry to find out. (Agreeing with Zids)
39. Does that scare you?
The thought of dying alone scares me more than the thought of dying does. (Agreeing with Zids)
40. Should I shift the tone? (I'm going to anyway)
Shift that tone as hard as you can, mah boi
41. Would you give the dragon or the wolf the chicken?
Why not just split it?
42. Why?
Because sharing is caring! Except for when it comes to STDs…
43. Is there a flavor combination better than chocolate and peanut butter?
No. Chocolatey chocolate balls and peanut butter puffs are just too good to pass up.
44. Quick! Make up an imaginary creature, name it, and describe it!
noooooopenopenopenopenopesooomuchnope
45. Did fedoras make a successful comeback? Does this please you? Float your boat? Tickle your pickle?
It very much tickles me pickle.
46. What is the worst thing about this website?
Furries. (Agreeing with Zids)
47. What is the best thing about this website?
Furries. (Agreeing with Zids)
48. When did you join this website?
2010? (
)
49. Why did you join this website?
Inflation.
50. Link to the first thing you faved, or the first thing you faved that isn't removed by the submission owner. No cheating :P
1. How did you get your name? Your real name, not your fursona' name.
Dustin Hoffman. Enough said.
2. What is your earliest memory?
My Mom picking me up from day care.
3. Is there anything you were very afraid of as a small child that doesn't scare you anymore?
I used to have this strange fear of the THX logo screen. Every time I heard that tune, I imagined an engine powering up and electrifying the floor. I had some weird sticking nightmares as a kid. Seriously.
4. What is your worst childhood memory?
Getting my hair caught in fly paper.
5. What is your happiest childhood memory?
I'm having a brain fart. Rose! Get me the gas-x!
6. What were you/are you good at in school?
Math.
7. What were you/are you bad at in school?
Spanish.
8. Did you ever get in trouble for anything in school?
Other than fighting, destroying classrooms, screaming and crying, pooping on the floor, and not paying attention in class and talking to other students? Not a whole lot.
9. Did you ever cheat in school?
No, but I did forget to pay attention a lot of the time.
10. Did fire drills startle the bejabahousendadun out of you in school, or was that just me?
I hated fire drills. I had to hold my ears because it hurt my ear holes.
11. What was your first car, motorcycle, or scooter?
A really cheap scooter from Toys R Us.
12. What was your first romantic kiss like?
Awkward. I laughed in her mouth.
13. Ever experiment with alcohol or sex before you were 'supposed to'?
Of course!
14. What was your first job?
Does an allowance count?
15. Were you ever bullied?
I was picked on (let's just say) for being such a raging bu.
16. What's your current living arrangement?
I've ranted about it enough before.
17. What car, motorcycle, or scooter do you drive now?
I drive people crazy. Does that count?
18. Do you like where you live?
Absolutely not! I wanna move back up north!
19. What's the hardest part about living where you do?
GOD DAMN SPANISH IS HARD TO LEARN.
20. Do you keep a clean house or a messy one?
I personally prefer to call my home, "Fucked up." XD
21. Favorite soda/pop/soft drink?
Root Beer, preferably Barq's.
22. Favorite alcoholic beverage?
Spiced Eggnog.
23. Favorite snack?
Bugles. Those are pretty much as addicting as cocaine.
24. Favorite coffee, tea, or specialty drink?
Cappuccino with milk and sugar. Mmmmm~
25. Favorite way to show someone you care about them?
Create something with or for them. (Agreeing with Zids.)
26. What do you regret?
Hurting others, ruining friendships, everything I've done in my past to hurt others.
25. What can you be proud of?
Being a good person, having good charm, and making everyone happy.
26. Is there someone who means a lot to you you've never told so?
No. Not ever, I always let someone know that they're worthwhile.
27.
28.
29.
30.
Those four were annoying variations of #26 (If you say so, Zids.)
31. What's the worst thing you can say to somebody?
Fuck your cunt you dumb whore. (Sorry for the vulgarity, just saying what the worst statement is.)
32. What's the best thing you can do say somebody?
I adore you for who you are, and that's a fact.
33. What's the worst thing you can do to somebody?
Not acknowledge they exist. (Agreeing with Zids)
34. What's the best thing you can do to someone?
Let them know that they matter. (Agreeing with Zids)
35. Are you going to be more of the best after this?
I'm going to keep trying. (Agreeing with Zids)
36. What sort of life do you want to live?
A life of inner peace.
37. Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
Yes.
38. What do you think really happens when you die?
I won't know till I get there and I'm not in a hurry to find out. (Agreeing with Zids)
39. Does that scare you?
The thought of dying alone scares me more than the thought of dying does. (Agreeing with Zids)
40. Should I shift the tone? (I'm going to anyway)
Shift that tone as hard as you can, mah boi
41. Would you give the dragon or the wolf the chicken?
Why not just split it?
42. Why?
Because sharing is caring! Except for when it comes to STDs…
43. Is there a flavor combination better than chocolate and peanut butter?
No. Chocolatey chocolate balls and peanut butter puffs are just too good to pass up.
44. Quick! Make up an imaginary creature, name it, and describe it!
noooooopenopenopenopenopesooomuchnope
45. Did fedoras make a successful comeback? Does this please you? Float your boat? Tickle your pickle?
It very much tickles me pickle.
46. What is the worst thing about this website?
Furries. (Agreeing with Zids)
47. What is the best thing about this website?
Furries. (Agreeing with Zids)
48. When did you join this website?
2010? (
)49. Why did you join this website?
Inflation.
50. Link to the first thing you faved, or the first thing you faved that isn't removed by the submission owner. No cheating :P
To Help a Struggling Fur (Super Important)
Posted 10 years agohttp://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6403709/
JawBone is really unfortunately in a horrible state of their life, and they desperately need your help. Please spread the word around and help them out.
JawBone is really unfortunately in a horrible state of their life, and they desperately need your help. Please spread the word around and help them out.
Don't Try Me. Ever. (Probably Religiously Offensive)
Posted 10 years agoLook, I know this journal thing is getting out of hand, especially because of the fact that my ratio of submissions to journals is getting off again, but I'm so ready to snap right now that I need some way to vent without people cutting me off like my Mom did.
First of all, I'm tired of people toying with me. They know I have anger issues, and they know I'm insecure, but that gives them no excuse or reason to harass me in any way. If they want to fight, fight some one else; I have a future I'm trying to set up for myself, and people like the idiots at my school are setting me up for failure.
Second of all, if you're sensitive about religion, respect those who aren't religious. We're not fucking Puritans anymore, so please, stop disrespecting the atheists.
Speaking of puritans, listen to what I had to deal with in class today:
We were talking about the Salem witch trails in English class today, and the one thing that was mentioned was about paranoia about the devil and puritan strictness. After I went through a huge conversation about how religion and philosophy are the same thing, this one person looks at me and tells me that I'm going to hell. First of all, I don't believe in hell, thank you very much. Second of all, you're an idiot. I just clearly established that I don't believe in any religion whatsoever, and you have the balls to tell me that I'm going to hell? Either you're retarded, or just a total asshole.
Just- for the sake of your lord, shut up and leave me alone, because God can't save you from my fist going into your face.
Look, I understand there are people who are heavily religious, and I can respect that, but for somebody to say something like that after I told them that I don't believe in religion is just stupid. No religion can excuse stupidity like that. Just- wow…This Song Turns Me On. Issue?
Posted 10 years ago
Maybe not. It is a song about BBWs, yes?
Plus, my lord, Gloria is smexah.Dear (?) Meme!
Posted 10 years agoDear self: Be good to yourself, and stop beating yourself up. You ARE smart, and you ARE talented, now use the both of them to make yourself a better person and you will finally make it into a mainstream school.
Dear ex: I'm so sorry…
Dear bestfriend: I have too many of you. Jesus H. Christ.
Dear ex bestfriend: Where the hell are you? I miss you so much!
Dear mom: Thank you for putting up with me and my Fecal Matter for the past 17-18 years. I've been such a pain in your ass, but you still loved me til this day. Now I promise that I will make things right in our family, and carry the Hubacher legacy onward and make the name better.
Dear Dad: I love you very much, but you are border lining racist and anti-gay. Please stop being so judge mental.
Dear sibling: Why don't you exist? I could've easily gained so much from having you in my life.
Dear Past self: Fuck you. You ruined your best friendship, you lost all your respect, and now because you learned from it, you can never go back and fix that mistake. For that, fuck you.
Dear future self: Please continue to do the right thing, and make sure that no matter what happens, you will stay happy with who you are.
Dear person I hate: You never treated me as your Grandson, you treated me like a slave and a total pile of crap.Don't blow your load yet…
Posted 10 years agoBut I do believe Five Nights at Freddy's 3 is now currently in the works…Logbook Entry #198: More Age = More Pr0n?
Posted 10 years agoOkay, this does count as an NSFW journal, so I figured I'd put that out there right before this began, because there may be some naughty talk in here.
So, I was thinking about what was to come this year, and one thing that crossed my mind was my upcoming age. Come this August, I will go from a teenager to a young adult. I will finally be able to legally turn that mature filter all the way off and fill my favorites gallery with those red-outlined thumbnails. With this change, I can also upload NSFW artwork to my own gallery, and what this basically means is that, when the first of August hits, I will no longer have an entirely clean gallery and will fill your inboxes with porn stories, naughty images, and basically everything a furry loves.
What I'm basically trying to say is that adult stories are a huge inspiration for me. These "G" rated stories are fun to write, and by no means will I stop writing General stories simply because I'm coming of age. No, no, not at all.
Let's just put it this way: I'm horny. I'm almost always horny. I find myself beating off more than 4 times a day, and even in my adult life, I predict myself being the same way. I'm a horndog, a stud, a ladykiller, let's say. Adult stories will be more abundant because my desire drives me to write a story about it, and seeing as my favorite part of this website is all the inflation fetish, fatfur material that scratches my itch. Again, all of it seems innocent, but even the most innocent of inflation pictures can lift the obelisk.
If this bothers anybody by any means, feel free to unwatch me right now, because I don't want to lose friends during a really good part of my life, especially those of you who watch me for my innocent content. That way, none of this will come as a surprise to you, and nobody will be caught off guard.
Not… that…anybody would unwatch me because of 18+ content. -laughs nervously, hoping he doesn't get bricked-System Update: Journal Header & Footer Changed!
Posted 10 years agoPretty self-explanatiry. Read the header and footer. I think you'll enjoy it.
By the way, it's a reference to Jaboody Dubs on YouTube.Logbook Entry #196: Things Will Be Different This Time…
Posted 11 years agoSeeing as everybody's posting these "New Year's Resolution" journals, I might as well share my goaks for 2015. Most of these goals are personal, but I want to focus on my Fur Affinity page a little more as well. I guess the only real way to share this is to show a little list of all my different goals.• Work on Managing Anger - I've been doing it well for the past few months of 2014, but I want to continue ti work on it, not just because I want to rid myself of the horrors of my rage, but also for reasons involving my career and my future.
• Mainstream to Atlantic Technical College & High School - I have been offered the oppurtunity of a lifetime last year, and that was to mainstream into a regular school. No more of this Charter school business; no more putting up with idiots constantly. Time to get into what the real world is truly like. I'm going to either get part-time mainstream or full-time mainstream into ATC to study Computer Programming and Game Design/Animation/Web Design. This will really help me in all sorts of different fields, which truly excites me, andis one of the sole purposes I'm focusing heavily on anger management this year. That way I can finally break the constant cycle of charter schooling and get into the real deal.
• Find and Establish a Decent Upload Schedule - Pretty much self-explanatory.
• Go on a Diet - Hey, I'm feeling really unhealthy IRL, and so I'm gonna get rid of this belly. Sorry to those of you who liked my chub.
• Gain Financial Smarts - I have a bank account now, and I plan on doing Paypal related shenanigans, and seeing as I'll be turning 18 this year, that puts a lot of pressure on me to make sure I manage my finances well. Plus, I have to find a job to manage bank statements and pay my bills and whatnot. No, I won't be working at McDonalds, don't worry.
• Go Easier on Myself - I need to stop being so hard on myself and treat myself as a human, not a robot. I'm not perfect, and that's just fine.
• Live, Love, and Enjoy what Life has to offer.
2014-2015
Posted 11 years agoBefore I begin this little retrospect journal, please takr a moment to help out this person here who is suffering terribly from lupus. http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6381226/
Wow…2014 in retrospect was a pretty strange year.
Well, first thing's first, I hated 2014. It was only another year of me having to suffer under the same roof as my Grandparents just like last year, and despite the fact that I've improved upon my anger issues, I still have suffered under the dark veil that is my Grandparents' cynical, condescending, manipulative and just downright asshole-y nature. January of 2015 will be the biggest reprieve I've ever had in over 7 years, and I will forever despise the two of them for the way they've treated us.
However…this year was also…rather pleasant, because I met a girl I really liked, and it blossomed into one of the best relationships I've ever had in my entire life. She was very sweet, but had an edge; she was really loving, but also showed when she was upset. Despite these things, she was the most accepting person I had ever known, and it went from a simple friendship to the deepest of loves ever.
I mean, we ended up splitting up for a while, but that's besides the point.
The point is, fuck 2014, bring on 2015. January 20th, bring me solace, bring me comfort, bring me joy, and bring me peace back into my life and our family's lives.Logbook Entry #194: Modern Music = Good?
Posted 11 years agoHey, dudes, sorry for the lack of art/stories lately. I just realized my journal to submission ratio is hovering around the 50:50 range. So, need to post more stuff. I guess I need to get into doing more drawing, maybe fetishy stuff. Kinda been losing my knack for making music, especially on my electronic drum set, but that's because the thing doesn't feel like a real drum set, and therefore affects my performance. Maybe I can trade it in for a Roland or something…
That said, I wanted to take a moment to say something really important, to me, at least. Modern music, I feel, has been getting a really bad rep, and for good reason, but I feel like people focus too much on popular music as "the industry," where as people seem to forget about the indie labels and other genres of music not being played on the local pop stations. A lot of Modern music is actually really good, in my opinion, and I have to disagree with those who often say that "modern music no longer has soul to it," or "the art of music is dying off." Yes, while we have abandoned a lot of the traditional recording styles and compositional techniques, that doesn't mean there aren't humans behind music or that music is losing its soul. If anything, our advancements in modern music makes it really easy to make some cool sounding stuff.
Yes, a lot of pop music sucks, but it has always been like that. People have always hated pop music because of its' overexposure and monotonous nature, but that doesn't mean that there aren't groups out there making epic tracks and making cash off of it. Granted, they're not being paid billions of dollars for it, but then again, their sales aren't as good as pop music's sales. That's why they call it pop music, ya know? Just to name a few, Celldweller, Blue Stahli, New Young Pony Club, "Peter, Bjorn and John," Juno Reactor, The Shanghai Restoration Project, and many more out there for you to listen to. Their music is out there for people to purchase and download, and by getting support from listeners, these artists gain exposure, so there are other artists that aren't being spammed that avtually have soul to them.
Again, music is music, and nobody can really judge music like they can judge games or movies, it's all based on taste, so just because someone likes older music and I like newer music doesn't make either one of us dumb or bad people, we just like different types of music. So, feel free to listen to what you choose, but I'd appreciate it if folks would be a little more appreciative of Modern music sometimes…Bandwagon! TMI Tuesday
Posted 11 years agoWe're doing it live!
What is TMI Tuesday?
TMI Tuesday is a meme in which you, the viewer, comments on a journal asking random questions, and I must answer them no matter how strange or personal they may be. This is why the answers may just be TMI.Logbook Entry #192: Riding Out the Storm (Apology Note)
Posted 11 years agoHey, guys, it's Dustin once again, and I just wanted to put up a little apology note for all my friends who are waiting to chat with me on Skype. Things have been getting worse for us in the household. My Grandparents are degenerating even more, acting stranger, and being more…what's the word…? Insistent. They're a bit more snippy, they're a little more pushy, and when push comes to shove, everything would collapse and fall into madness.
That's why I haven't been on Skype very much anymore. I'm trying to avoid my Grandparents as much as possible, and I'm staying out here in the garage, away from the bickering and the kniving of the withering old farts. The both of them are getting worse, and now that we've broken it to them that we'll be moving out soon, things may get even more intense. We haven't told them what date we'll be going, not until after New Year's Eve, but now they realize that they won't have us anymore, and their little servants (which is what they treat us like) won't be around to do their jobs for them.
Again, I really wish Nook had a Skype application, but because Barnes and Noble sucks balls, all they have is an instruction booklet. On top of that, I won't be getting my iPhone until March, so the next time you hear from me on Skype may end up having to be when we move into the new place. They're going insane for the most part, and we need at least somebody in this house who is sane to balance out the madness, and that's why I'm staying out here.
I'm terribly sorry, you guys; I wish I could do something about it, but I can't just take the computer out here into the garage. They'd probably freak out and demand it be put back in the house. So, for now, my only contact sources will be here on F.A. I can't even go on Favebook on my tablet. What a bunch of shit.
Anyways, I hope you guys enjoy your day today, and remember, if you want to talk to me, just drop me a Nkte and I'd be glad to talk. ~<3Logbook Entry #191: Orvus is Adorable~ <3
Posted 11 years agoI've been playing "Ratchet and Clank Future: A Crack in Time" lately with my Father, and I think I havefound a semi-love interest in one of the characyers: Orvus.
God damn it, he is so cute, and I think I might just make some fan art of him because- nngh…so aforable, he is.
Just wanted to post a journal about it. Idk.Logbook Entry #190: RL Inflation Exercises (NESFW)
Posted 11 years agoNESFW = Not Exactly Safe for Work
So, as I have said to all my friends here on F.A, I have been doing some exercises IRL to train myself how to inflate my belly like a balloon. The process is fairly dirty, and it's extremely dangerous, but the end result feels lovely, and often results in a lot of burps and farts. Nonetheless, I've been workin gon it for a while now, and much to my delight, it's been going well. I've been using a siphon pump (the kind that you use for siphoning fluids, such as gasor oil from a car) from my Grandparents' garage, and I've been using the output hose to inflate myself. I'll spare you the explicit details, but let's just say I do require lube to do this.
I'll inflate myself very slowly and very carefully, as not to injure myself or burst, and I'll go until I begin to feel cramps, or I feel excessively uncomfortable. This allows me to make my stomach and other parts of myself stretchier, and so far, it's been working nicely. Just earlier this evening (I'm up at midnight right now lol), I managed to pump myself up until I actually began to feel my belly expand and rise with the pressure! It only rose about a millimeter, though, but the sensation was amazing! I felt like I was actually inflating like a balloon! My skin felt tight and bouncy, and when I gave it a gentle slap, it made that hollow "thunk" like when you hit a kickball.
In time, I'll be able to inflate myself much larger, but I do recommend that you do your research if you want to do this yourself, and be extremely careful! People have actually ruptured internal organs before and died because of inflatey shenanigans! So be extra cautious when inflating, and only go until you begin to feel uncomfortable. Then pull the hose out immediately, and allow yourself time to deflate.
I also recommend that you do it whilst laying down. If you have some extra weight such as myself, you cramp up horribly if you stand up and try to walk around, and let yourself relax. If you have the intense urge to fart, let yourself do just that. By allowing your body to perform its' natural functions while you inflate, you'll inflate yourself in a much safer mannerism, and have less of a chance of rupturing your rectum.
So, that's what I've been doing with my spare time. -melts-